[ Just writing that puts a smile on my face ]: u left me because......

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u left me because......

Monday, March 29, 2010 at 1:45 pm

The fights we had were the worst. I loved (still love) u so much. Seeing u angry at me, knowing that it was me who caused it. It seemed that at times when u needed me to be there for u, I wud fuck up most....I’m angry at myself for failing to change. I knew u needed me to, I knew if I cud it would make things better. I don’t know why I didn’t. I do know that if I had a chance now that I wud do anything to make it better. No sacrifice wud be too much. If I cud just feel u in my arms again... u make me want to be a better man... Through all the bad things we faced we certainly did have some wonderful times though. We made the best of every moment. The drive across cities, getting thrown out of best escape to have the best night in a romantic hotel room. In every bad situation there was always a shimmer of light just being with u... When we broke up, I said it was because I saw what I was doing to you. The pain I was causing you and I wanted it to stop, because I loved you enough to do that. I can see now that I love u enough to do anything to stop that pain. Instead of letting u go I wish I cud have stopped doing what I was doing so we cud be together. Find the peace and serenity in our relationship. u holding me, is all I wud need. I wud be completely and totally honest with u. The only reason I withheld anything from my past is because I feared that u wudn’t love me. I failed to realize that not being honest kept u from loving me fully... u left me, because I was not worth ur soul, because love sud not devour dreams, because our love sud protect us both. u let it protect me when u told me it was over. u lied when u told me.. u didn’t love me... u left me because u loved me more than u loved urself, because u cherished my dreams with the same violent ferocity u cherished ur own...u left because there was no right answer to the question of which of us had to break to fit. ..u left because no matter who gave, the jagged edges left behind wud shared the other... u left because love is absolute even when the sacrifices it demands are brutal... u left because it was the one thing i couldn’t do... u left me because u reminded me.... u were a tiger, and tigers are strong enough to do anything... u said that if it was truly about me loving u... I wud never be able to say those things to u. Well, it was LOVING u...feeling like u chose to leave me after I poured my heart out for u, begging u to come back to me... That I said those things. Now all I hope to do is let u know that I really did love u, I still love u, and will always love u. Even if it means we can never be together... Love, as always. DA

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My Affection Notes

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