[ Just writing that puts a smile on my face ]: Juli 2012

Kamis, 12 Juli 2012

give me this last one....

I don’t know how to do it but I got to do right, I need to say I’m sorry... I don’t want to see us fight for so long.... I’m staring at the clouds, I sit and reminisce. I remember all the good times we had, I remember our first kiss... I don’t want to have to end it, I don’t want to see it go free... I want to be able to feel ur lips again not just in my dreams... Although I constantly dream of u, It just doesn’t seem enough... I want to see u face again, I want to feel ur touch, I want u in my bed, Hugging and kissing me... I want u in my bed, Making love to me... I miss all the times we’ve shared and I can’t stand to let it go, Over something that I did. I really went down low, If I could do anything only to see ur face again... The real reason why I cried because i missed u so much... Damn I want to turn back time and just tell u how sorry i am... My life is just mess because I lied to u.... I'm suffering from stress, I’m suffering from a broken soul because I broke ur soul. I wish I wouldn’t have lied to u, I want to make it work... I want to be ur only one, I don’t want to have to search, Search for a different man... Cause I only want u but when I close my eyes and I open and ur not here. A tear runs down my face... I can’t act like I don’t care and I hope you come back to me and forgive me for what I’ve done, Please... Give me another chance, Give me this last one....

hingga hembusan nafas terakhirku...

Berapa lama'kah aku harus menunggu dirimu dan adakah sedikit ruang dihatimu untukku... Aku selalu berharap waktu akan menjawab

semuanya dan berpihak pada diriku... Andai kamu tahu di malam-malamku, aku selalu menyebut namamu dan andaikan saja kamu tahu air mata ini menetes mambasahi wajahku bila teringat dirimu... Dalam kesepian aku masih menunggumu dan didalam hati ini aku masih menantikan kehadiran cintamu. Satu hal yang harus kamu ketahui bahwa cinta yang tumbuh didalam hati ini tak akan pernah sirna untukmu dan aabila aku telah dimiliki oleh orang lain rasa ini tak akan pernah hilang karna cinta ini selalu menjadi milikmu... Tidak akan pernah ada orang lain yang akan mendapatkan cintaku ini selain dirimu hingga hembusan nafas terakhirku.... DA

cintamu telah abadi di hatiku....

Kenangan indah bersama kamu tak akan mungkin dapat tergantikan... Meski hidupku terus berjalan, ku rela kamu telah meninggalku... Kamu telah pergi jauh tinggalkan diriku disini... Walau hatiku ini harus kehilangan dirimu, Kamu tak akan pernah terganti biar kutangisi air mataku untuk melepas kepergianmu... Meski diriku tau kamu tak mungkin kembali padaku tapi cintamu telah abadi di hatiku... DA

suatu hari nanti...

Aku selalu menyebut namamu yang indah di dalam setiap doa'ku... teringat disaat diriku melepas kepergianmu walaupun rasa ini tak merelakan kamu pergi... Aku akan tetap disini menanti dirimu... Biarkanlah hati ini selalu merindukanmu karena hanya dirimu yang mengerti aku... Kepergianmu membuatku selalu ingin bersamamu... Biarkanlah aku menangis dalam kesepian... Andai saja rindu yang aku punya ini terbalas, aku tak berharap kembali diriku menjadi seseorang teristimewa untukmu tapi aku berharap suatu hari nanti hati ini bisa kembali lagi bersamamu....

hatiku masih utuh milikmu...

Andai saja kamu tahu isi hatiku, Hatiku yang berisi besar nya rasa cinta buat kamu... Hatiku masih setia menanti cinta darimu. Andai saja kamu buka mata hatimu,, sangat jelas terlihat betapa sebesar rasa cintaku ini terhadap dirimu, Ruang didalam hatiku hanya terukir namamu. Andai saja kamu tahu, Tidak pernah sedetik pun hatiku berhenti mencintaimu... Jujur aku akui, Hatiku hanya buat kamu, Aku ingin memiliki kembali cintamu... Andai saja kamu mengerti setiap kata-kata dalam ucapanku buat dirimu, hatiku ini masih utuh milikmu... DA

dirimu dan diriku

Mengapa aku tidak bisa berhenti merindukanmu?... Karena diriku sangat membutuhkan dirimu... Mengapa diriku tidak bisa berhenti memperdulikan dirimu?.... Karena dirimu sangat berarti bagi diriku... Mengapa diriku sangat memerlukan dirimu didalam hidupku?... karena dirimu hanya satu-satunya yang membuat hidupku menjadi lebih berwarna... Mengapa diriku mampu mengatakan hal seperti ini kepada dirimu?... Karena diriku terlalu mencintaimu dan sejujurnya diriku tak akan pernah rela membiarkan dirimu pergi dari diriku... cinta hanya butuh dirimu dan diriku...

menunggu dirimu...

Aku akan membangun sebuah dinding dihatiku dan tidak akan aku biarkan seorangpun dapat masuk ke dalam hatiku

kecuali kamu... Karena hatiku akan selalu menunggu dirimu untuk kembali lagi bersamamu... DA

Tau'kah kamu?....

Aku berharap aku bisa memutar kembali waktu yang telah terlewatkan, tidak pada waktu dimana aku dan kamu pertama kali bertemu, akan tetapi pada hari-hari dimana aku dan kamu selalu menghabiskan waktu bersama...

tau'kah kamu mengapa aku ingin sekali memutar waktu itu? karena.... Aku sangat merindukan saat-saat bahagia ketika aku bersama kamu... DA

Rabu, 11 Juli 2012

now I have....

I know that u'll never read this and I don't even care. But I think I have to express exactly how I feel. I don't care if u reject me, ignore me and forget all about me. I just have to tell u before it's too late. I been taking forever b'cos u hurt me back and deserted me. It's not a big deal at all...to u. I can find someone else easily. But the thing is, I really don't want to. I don't understand what happened between us. Maybe it's b'cos u dont give me second chance and u found someone better than me now... u just don't realize how much that hurt me. I honestly want to forget bout u, but that's my problem. I can't... u've never gave me a real apology, u just cared bout urself and left me there to figure it all out and now I have: u got sick of me, found someone better than me, dumped me, dated him, ignored me, befriended me, and now u've forgotten bout me... DA

I need somebody...

I really need somebody, someone who can really understand who can take away my pain and always be there to offer me his hand.. I really need somebody, someone to be there when I’m scared... So he can hold me in his arms and show me he’ll always care... I really need somebody, someone to be there when I’m upset can make my heart beat faster like it did when we first met.. I really need somebody, someone to help me when I cry, need someone to dry my tears to be truthful & tell no lies... I really need somebody, someone to make me feel good and show me what real love is, tell me that they really want me.. I really need somebody, someone to always be true but, ‘somebody’ will never be enough for the only one I want is u... DA

Selasa, 10 Juli 2012

I cry for....

I cry for the times that u were almost mine.... I cry for the memories I’ve left behind... I cry for the pain, the lost, the old, the new.... I cry for the times I thought I had u.... DA

My Affection Notes

Everyone has felt it at one time of their life, the loss of a love whether it be a family member friend or a relationship that parted ways leaving a broken heart behind to pick up the pieces and start over again. By writing, reading or sharing notes bout love can be a great way to start the healing process. Sometimes, after losing someone we care so much about, writing poems might be the only thing we can deem to muster.

Writing can be a great way for a person like me to have a voice to express my grief, anger, or sorrow over the lost love. Putting it into words regardless if any one reads it or not allows a person to release some of those emotions and begin to heal. i do not have to worry bout anyone knowing my secret desire to rekindle a lost love even if it was a relationship that had no future to begin with or if it was full of turmoil. In my notes bout lost love, adore of love, respect of love & proud being to love and to beloved.

my words are mine own to do with as i choose. However, if i've a hard time putting my thoughts & feelings down into words i can always seek ideas in how to express my self in it.Sharing poems about lost love can be healing as well as can possibly rekindle that lost love. With sharing poems to the love that was lost gives you the opportunity to express yourself and what that love meant to you. Often times in a relationship when love goes bad it is due to lack of communication.

Reading poems focused on lost love can be healing as well. It gives a person connection to others that are or have experienced the same emotions and pain. After reading poems having to do with lost love a person does not feel as alone as often is an emotion commonly felt after losing someone we love.

Although circumstances may not have been the same, the emotions that come with a lost love are. They are very similar to those experienced when you lose a loved one through death. In these poems, you can feel their anger, sadness, alone, frustrated and so many more emotions that are mixed it sometimes makes one wonder how and if they ever got passed the loss.

After reading other people’s poems regarding lost love i will begin to see that others too have really felt the exact same way, and in some even see their closure and how the moved forward. It will help me move forward and work through the pain. Not all notes in this mold end in emptiness, some can end incredible remarkable. That is what makes them so amazing.

Sharing my notes cud re-open that communication line and give me a second chance at keeping it open. However, even if the notes do not rekindle those lost loving feelings it can give me some closure. i will feel better knowing that i tried. Notes are remarkable in how they can touch on so many emotions and be so reflective of how one might feel.