ur home....

I imagine u right here with me the one and only place, u are meant to be. This is ur home here in my heart but fate has been unkind and time has kept us apart... So, I imagine u right here with me... DA

From where u are....

From where u are, u have the power to touch my heart... u’ve reached a place deep inside of mine. No one else cud ever find like the way u touched, u’ve turned my world around and I’m so lost in u now. That even if I wanted to, I can’t be found. From where u are, u move me in so many ways... Lift my spirits, take my breath away and I can feel the love ithout the simplicity of one touch. From where I stand, I can see all that I am where u are... DA

Alone...

The promise u made that night as, i held u under the starlight... u swore to me that u wud love me forever, but i guess i wasn't good enough for u. u wanted more than i cud give u. I did what i cud to hold back, but there was nothing u cud do after my soul and my heart ware broken, and I swore that i loved none other than u, and I haven't, and i never will. I fear that i have become a lost soul in this world. My heart is broken and can't be repaired. I am now the one thing i feared... Alone. DA

I will always love u....

I know how much I've hurt u so badly and I never meant to let u down... We both had believed so very strongly that u and I wud be forever bound. u were my guardian angel, u see u picked me up when I wud fall but ur loving arms wrapped around me is what I will miss the most of all. It was such a tough choice that I made when I decided to set u free. I know that u promised never to leave me and I promised never to leave u too but my conscience got the best of me... I realized that I had nothing to offer u, My love just wasn't enough... u deserve so much more than this. Our lives wud just be too tough. Now u can go on with ur life and find the happiness that u need... I won't be there to hold u back, It's hard to vision, but u will see. I can't tell u how sorry I am that I've had to turn u away but I'm crying right along with u, did u remeber? and in my heart u will always stay... Please don't hate me for breaking ur soul, I knew it was the right thing to do and I know that I will regret this one day b'cos I know that I will always love u... DA

heaven and earth

I sit here in my room and wish for u to come back... I close my eyes so I can see ur face. Remembering the last time we were together is tearing me apart. I hope u felt what I felt, when I kissed ur lips and whispered: I Love you. All u had to do was say the word and I wud have moved heaven and earth to stay by ur side. u never did... DA

Hiding behind....

I was once sad and lonely, Having nobody to comfort me... So I wore this mask that always smiled to hide my feelings behind a lie. Before long, I had some friends... With my mask, I was one of them but deep inside, I still felt so empty like I was missing a part of me... Nobody cud hear my cries at night. For I designed my mask to hide the lies and nobody cud see the pain I was feeling for I designed my mask to be laughing... Behind all my smiles were my tears and behind all the comfort were the fears... Everything u think u see, wasn't everything there was to me. Day by day, I was slowly dying. I cudn't go on, There was something missing... Until now I'm still searching for the thing that'll stop my crying, for someone who'll erase my fears, for the person who'll wipe my tears but till then I'll keep on smiling. Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing... Hoping one day I can smile till then, I'll be here.. waiting. DA

memories are for me...

I am trying to forget someone who gave me so much to remember and it is almost impossible, and will hurt me in more ways than it can help me. In my life one crucial bit that I must remember is that the memories that I make with people in different places and in different times, are the memories that help to make me who I am on the inside. Though there will be people in my life that commit acts and say words to me that are wrong, I sud never forget about the memories they helped me create b'cos it is with these memories that i am able to build upon the rest of I live. Remember that my memories are for me to be able to use to educate me about the good times and the bad times in my past, while my dreams sud be used to help educate me about my future... DA

Stupid enough....

One of the best feelings in the world is feeling free from being concerned with someone who I have cut my ties with. When I am brought to mind this person, and I am able to not really care what is to be said about this person, instead of being angry or sad when this person is invoked in my thought process... Showing signs of anger, and sadness may be indicators that a person is not truly over being with a person that they loved or that was part of the past... In order to get past needing or wanting somebody from my past, I must be willing to let them go completely. Let them go physically, cease physical contact with them, and let them go from my mind, cease talking to them, and cease thinking about them if I know that things are really over. After a while I will feel very amazed when I realize that I no longer need or want anybody who would be stupid enough to walk away from me... DA

I dont want to be hurt...

I have been hurt by someone that I hold dear to my heart, and if I haven't, I don't fret b'cos eventually, I will.... This isn't a negative statement, but more of a realistic one, as humans by nature sometimes my own selfish desires outweigh the consequences of hurting someone that is close to mine. In order to deal with the inevitable I must brace my self and keep me guard... Only let people in my life that I am willing to be hurt by, b'cos anyone with an ounce of human blood in their body... Remind myself of this fact when I deal with those that I love as well. I Realize that as I don't want to be hurt, it isn't right to hurt others. I think about the consequences my actions will have on somebody who loves me, as to keep them respecting me as someone that they know wud try their hardest to avoid everything possible as to not hurt them....

never let pain make me stop...

The things that i go through in my life teach me lessons for the betterment of the rest of i live if i choose to learn from them. Pain makes me change, sometimes for good and sometimes the worse. In order to get over my addictions and faults in my life i must endure pain most times to do so, but in the end if i fight through the pain that i experience and i don't cave i will achieve the change in my self that i desire. i do not be scared of pain, but instead endure it. i do not let pain deter me from the course in life that i want to take... Remember that pain is necessary in life and in order to change who i am i must experience some pain. Continue to push on, through the pain, and through the discomfort, never let pain make me stop, instead use it as motivation to keep pushing forward... DA

I never be affraid to try and conquer....

Forgetting the things that hurt me in the past is something that is much easier said than done. But if I am to go the places in life that I desire to go, and if I am to ever achieve the dreams that I have in my heart, I have to be willing to learn from my pasts more than I am willing to try and relive it... The things that I have done, the mistakes I made, and the people that hurt me before, are all things of the past that I can't simply go back and change. So I don't waste my time trying to... Be better than I was in the past by making a solid attempt at living righteously, inspired, dedicated, and courageously each day. I Learn lessons from the old, but I never be afraid to try and conquer what is before me that may seem new... DA

I never be afraid to let go....

Sometimes my love must be broken and let go so that both hearts won't have to keep me suffering. Though it is true that my love makes me want to hold on to things that I sudn't, it is up to me to seek what is truly in my heart to know that I deserve greatness in every aspect of my life, including my love life. There is a huge difference between settling for a person b'cos of the love shared in the past, and loving someone b'cos they are who is meant for me. I never be afraid to let go... DA

I miss you... I miss being with you every second and moment everyday and every smile I see warming my heart knowing you love me and taking my hand for I was your guy. I need you back in my life. For I miss you so dearly....All the things you’ve done so clearly for me. I miss you. I loved the times i would walk you back home but wishing we could stay together all night and forever. I miss your hugs... I felt so safe when I was around you, but now that you’re gone. My worries are showing with everyone knowing not helping the way you would comfort me... I miss you. I miss you!! DA

You and I....

you said that you loved me, you said that you needed me, you said that you would never leave me… you said when i cry you cry, when i smile you smile, when i laugh you laugh, when im sad your sad.. because of everything i went through in the past i didn’t believe you..i walked away and you cried... you said i need you and for once in my life it was true... you needed me and i needed you... yes, You and I...