Cinta

Terkadang aku sudah tak mampu lagi untuk menghadapi sesuatu yang kusebut cinta. terkadang aku sakit karna cinta dan sering terluka bahkan terhina karena sebuah kata cinta. Terkadang Cinta hanya membuatku mengeluarkan air mata dan karena sebuah rasa cinta aku hanya bisa menerima dengan lapan dada. Segala rasa sayangku, pengorbananku, kesetianku hingga rasa hormatku tak akan pernah berarti untukmu.. walaupun kini cinta tak berpihak padaku tapi aku tetap berdiri tegap menghadapi pahitnya rasa dan aku siap terluka oleh cinta... DA

seharusnya....

aku menyadari akan sebuah kesalahan yang telah ku perbuat, aku mengakui dan meminta maaf. Ku gunakan kesalahan ini sebagai kesempatan untuk belajar dan berkembang. aku tidak pernah takut akan hukuman atau penolakan, tapi seharusnya sebuah permintaan maaf akan membuat setiap pasangan lebih mudah untuk menerima dan memaafkan... mungkin permintaan maafku tak kan memiliki arti bagimu tapi teramat besar nilainya

di mataku.... DA

Tersimpan dan terjaga...

Hal ini mungkin tak pantas untuk aku utarakan padamu, Di setiap detak jantung terbesit nama mu... Cintamu terukir indah di jiwaku. Rasa sayang ini masih banyak untuk mu, aku sadari mungkin aku bukan yang terbaik untukmu dan kamu masih menjadi cerita indah di hatiku karena hanya dirimu yang mampu membuat segala nya menjadi indah. Semua tentang kamu masih tersimpan dan terjaga di dalam hati ini, meskipun kamu tak ingin bersama ku...

DA

give me this last one....

I don’t know how to do it but I got to do right, I need to say I’m sorry... I don’t want to see us fight for so long.... I’m staring at the clouds, I sit and reminisce. I remember all the good times we had, I remember our first kiss... I don’t want to have to end it, I don’t want to see it go free... I want to be able to feel ur lips again not just in my dreams... Although I constantly dream of u, It just doesn’t seem enough... I want to see u face again, I want to feel ur touch, I want u in my bed, Hugging and kissing me... I want u in my bed, Making love to me... I miss all the times we’ve shared and I can’t stand to let it go, Over something that I did. I really went down low, If I could do anything only to see ur face again... The real reason why I cried because i missed u so much... Damn I want to turn back time and just tell u how sorry i am... My life is just mess because I lied to u.... I'm suffering from stress, I’m suffering from a broken soul because I broke ur soul. I wish I wouldn’t have lied to u, I want to make it work... I want to be ur only one, I don’t want to have to search, Search for a different man... Cause I only want u but when I close my eyes and I open and ur not here. A tear runs down my face... I can’t act like I don’t care and I hope you come back to me and forgive me for what I’ve done, Please... Give me another chance, Give me this last one....

DA

hingga hembusan nafas terakhirku...

Berapa lama'kah aku harus menunggu dirimu dan adakah sedikit ruang dihatimu untukku... Aku selalu berharap waktu akan menjawab

semuanya dan berpihak pada diriku... Andai kamu tahu di malam-malamku, aku selalu menyebut namamu dan andaikan saja kamu tahu air mata ini menetes mambasahi wajahku bila teringat dirimu... Dalam kesepian aku masih menunggumu dan didalam hati ini aku masih menantikan kehadiran cintamu. Satu hal yang harus kamu ketahui bahwa cinta yang tumbuh didalam hati ini tak akan pernah sirna untukmu dan aabila aku telah dimiliki oleh orang lain rasa ini tak akan pernah hilang karna cinta ini selalu menjadi milikmu... Tidak akan pernah ada orang lain yang akan mendapatkan cintaku ini selain dirimu hingga hembusan nafas terakhirku.... DA

cintamu telah abadi di hatiku....

Kenangan indah bersama kamu tak akan mungkin dapat tergantikan... Meski hidupku terus berjalan, ku rela kamu telah meninggalku... Kamu telah pergi jauh tinggalkan diriku disini... Walau hatiku ini harus kehilangan dirimu, Kamu tak akan pernah terganti biar kutangisi air mataku untuk melepas kepergianmu... Meski diriku tau kamu tak mungkin kembali padaku tapi cintamu telah abadi di hatiku... DA

suatu hari nanti...

Aku selalu menyebut namamu yang indah di dalam setiap doa'ku... teringat disaat diriku melepas kepergianmu walaupun rasa ini tak merelakan kamu pergi... Aku akan tetap disini menanti dirimu... Biarkanlah hati ini selalu merindukanmu karena hanya dirimu yang mengerti aku... Kepergianmu membuatku selalu ingin bersamamu... Biarkanlah aku menangis dalam kesepian... Andai saja rindu yang aku punya ini terbalas, aku tak berharap kembali diriku menjadi seseorang teristimewa untukmu tapi aku berharap suatu hari nanti hati ini bisa kembali lagi bersamamu....

DA

hatiku masih utuh milikmu...

Andai saja kamu tahu isi hatiku, Hatiku yang berisi besar nya rasa cinta buat kamu... Hatiku masih setia menanti cinta darimu. Andai saja kamu buka mata hatimu,, sangat jelas terlihat betapa sebesar rasa cintaku ini terhadap dirimu, Ruang didalam hatiku hanya terukir namamu. Andai saja kamu tahu, Tidak pernah sedetik pun hatiku berhenti mencintaimu... Jujur aku akui, Hatiku hanya buat kamu, Aku ingin memiliki kembali cintamu... Andai saja kamu mengerti setiap kata-kata dalam ucapanku buat dirimu, hatiku ini masih utuh milikmu... DA

dirimu dan diriku

Mengapa aku tidak bisa berhenti merindukanmu?... Karena diriku sangat membutuhkan dirimu... Mengapa diriku tidak bisa berhenti memperdulikan dirimu?.... Karena dirimu sangat berarti bagi diriku... Mengapa diriku sangat memerlukan dirimu didalam hidupku?... karena dirimu hanya satu-satunya yang membuat hidupku menjadi lebih berwarna... Mengapa diriku mampu mengatakan hal seperti ini kepada dirimu?... Karena diriku terlalu mencintaimu dan sejujurnya diriku tak akan pernah rela membiarkan dirimu pergi dari diriku... cinta hanya butuh dirimu dan diriku...

DA

menunggu dirimu...

Aku akan membangun sebuah dinding dihatiku dan tidak akan aku biarkan seorangpun dapat masuk ke dalam hatiku

kecuali kamu... Karena hatiku akan selalu menunggu dirimu untuk kembali lagi bersamamu... DA

Tau'kah kamu?....

Aku berharap aku bisa memutar kembali waktu yang telah terlewatkan, tidak pada waktu dimana aku dan kamu pertama kali bertemu, akan tetapi pada hari-hari dimana aku dan kamu selalu menghabiskan waktu bersama...

tau'kah kamu mengapa aku ingin sekali memutar waktu itu? karena.... Aku sangat merindukan saat-saat bahagia ketika aku bersama kamu... DA

now I have....

I know that u'll never read this and I don't even care. But I think I have to express exactly how I feel. I don't care if u reject me, ignore me and forget all about me. I just have to tell u before it's too late. I been taking forever b'cos u hurt me back and deserted me. It's not a big deal at all...to u. I can find someone else easily. But the thing is, I really don't want to. I don't understand what happened between us. Maybe it's b'cos u dont give me second chance and u found someone better than me now... u just don't realize how much that hurt me. I honestly want to forget bout u, but that's my problem. I can't... u've never gave me a real apology, u just cared bout urself and left me there to figure it all out and now I have: u got sick of me, found someone better than me, dumped me, dated him, ignored me, befriended me, and now u've forgotten bout me... DA

I need somebody...

I really need somebody, someone who can really understand who can take away my pain and always be there to offer me his hand.. I really need somebody, someone to be there when I’m scared... So he can hold me in his arms and show me he’ll always care... I really need somebody, someone to be there when I’m upset can make my heart beat faster like it did when we first met.. I really need somebody, someone to help me when I cry, need someone to dry my tears to be truthful & tell no lies... I really need somebody, someone to make me feel good and show me what real love is, tell me that they really want me.. I really need somebody, someone to always be true but, ‘somebody’ will never be enough for the only one I want is u... DA

I cry for....

I cry for the times that u were almost mine.... I cry for the memories I’ve left behind... I cry for the pain, the lost, the old, the new.... I cry for the times I thought I had u.... DA

ur home....

I imagine u right here with me the one and only place, u are meant to be. This is ur home here in my heart but fate has been unkind and time has kept us apart... So, I imagine u right here with me... DA

From where u are....

From where u are, u have the power to touch my heart... u’ve reached a place deep inside of mine. No one else cud ever find like the way u touched, u’ve turned my world around and I’m so lost in u now. That even if I wanted to, I can’t be found. From where u are, u move me in so many ways... Lift my spirits, take my breath away and I can feel the love ithout the simplicity of one touch. From where I stand, I can see all that I am where u are... DA

Alone...

The promise u made that night as, i held u under the starlight... u swore to me that u wud love me forever, but i guess i wasn't good enough for u. u wanted more than i cud give u. I did what i cud to hold back, but there was nothing u cud do after my soul and my heart ware broken, and I swore that i loved none other than u, and I haven't, and i never will. I fear that i have become a lost soul in this world. My heart is broken and can't be repaired. I am now the one thing i feared... Alone. DA

I will always love u....

I know how much I've hurt u so badly and I never meant to let u down... We both had believed so very strongly that u and I wud be forever bound. u were my guardian angel, u see u picked me up when I wud fall but ur loving arms wrapped around me is what I will miss the most of all. It was such a tough choice that I made when I decided to set u free. I know that u promised never to leave me and I promised never to leave u too but my conscience got the best of me... I realized that I had nothing to offer u, My love just wasn't enough... u deserve so much more than this. Our lives wud just be too tough. Now u can go on with ur life and find the happiness that u need... I won't be there to hold u back, It's hard to vision, but u will see. I can't tell u how sorry I am that I've had to turn u away but I'm crying right along with u, did u remeber? and in my heart u will always stay... Please don't hate me for breaking ur soul, I knew it was the right thing to do and I know that I will regret this one day b'cos I know that I will always love u... DA

heaven and earth

I sit here in my room and wish for u to come back... I close my eyes so I can see ur face. Remembering the last time we were together is tearing me apart. I hope u felt what I felt, when I kissed ur lips and whispered: I Love you. All u had to do was say the word and I wud have moved heaven and earth to stay by ur side. u never did... DA

Hiding behind....

I was once sad and lonely, Having nobody to comfort me... So I wore this mask that always smiled to hide my feelings behind a lie. Before long, I had some friends... With my mask, I was one of them but deep inside, I still felt so empty like I was missing a part of me... Nobody cud hear my cries at night. For I designed my mask to hide the lies and nobody cud see the pain I was feeling for I designed my mask to be laughing... Behind all my smiles were my tears and behind all the comfort were the fears... Everything u think u see, wasn't everything there was to me. Day by day, I was slowly dying. I cudn't go on, There was something missing... Until now I'm still searching for the thing that'll stop my crying, for someone who'll erase my fears, for the person who'll wipe my tears but till then I'll keep on smiling. Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing... Hoping one day I can smile till then, I'll be here.. waiting. DA

memories are for me...

I am trying to forget someone who gave me so much to remember and it is almost impossible, and will hurt me in more ways than it can help me. In my life one crucial bit that I must remember is that the memories that I make with people in different places and in different times, are the memories that help to make me who I am on the inside. Though there will be people in my life that commit acts and say words to me that are wrong, I sud never forget about the memories they helped me create b'cos it is with these memories that i am able to build upon the rest of I live. Remember that my memories are for me to be able to use to educate me about the good times and the bad times in my past, while my dreams sud be used to help educate me about my future... DA

Stupid enough....

One of the best feelings in the world is feeling free from being concerned with someone who I have cut my ties with. When I am brought to mind this person, and I am able to not really care what is to be said about this person, instead of being angry or sad when this person is invoked in my thought process... Showing signs of anger, and sadness may be indicators that a person is not truly over being with a person that they loved or that was part of the past... In order to get past needing or wanting somebody from my past, I must be willing to let them go completely. Let them go physically, cease physical contact with them, and let them go from my mind, cease talking to them, and cease thinking about them if I know that things are really over. After a while I will feel very amazed when I realize that I no longer need or want anybody who would be stupid enough to walk away from me... DA

I dont want to be hurt...

I have been hurt by someone that I hold dear to my heart, and if I haven't, I don't fret b'cos eventually, I will.... This isn't a negative statement, but more of a realistic one, as humans by nature sometimes my own selfish desires outweigh the consequences of hurting someone that is close to mine. In order to deal with the inevitable I must brace my self and keep me guard... Only let people in my life that I am willing to be hurt by, b'cos anyone with an ounce of human blood in their body... Remind myself of this fact when I deal with those that I love as well. I Realize that as I don't want to be hurt, it isn't right to hurt others. I think about the consequences my actions will have on somebody who loves me, as to keep them respecting me as someone that they know wud try their hardest to avoid everything possible as to not hurt them....

never let pain make me stop...

The things that i go through in my life teach me lessons for the betterment of the rest of i live if i choose to learn from them. Pain makes me change, sometimes for good and sometimes the worse. In order to get over my addictions and faults in my life i must endure pain most times to do so, but in the end if i fight through the pain that i experience and i don't cave i will achieve the change in my self that i desire. i do not be scared of pain, but instead endure it. i do not let pain deter me from the course in life that i want to take... Remember that pain is necessary in life and in order to change who i am i must experience some pain. Continue to push on, through the pain, and through the discomfort, never let pain make me stop, instead use it as motivation to keep pushing forward... DA

I never be affraid to try and conquer....

Forgetting the things that hurt me in the past is something that is much easier said than done. But if I am to go the places in life that I desire to go, and if I am to ever achieve the dreams that I have in my heart, I have to be willing to learn from my pasts more than I am willing to try and relive it... The things that I have done, the mistakes I made, and the people that hurt me before, are all things of the past that I can't simply go back and change. So I don't waste my time trying to... Be better than I was in the past by making a solid attempt at living righteously, inspired, dedicated, and courageously each day. I Learn lessons from the old, but I never be afraid to try and conquer what is before me that may seem new... DA

I never be afraid to let go....

Sometimes my love must be broken and let go so that both hearts won't have to keep me suffering. Though it is true that my love makes me want to hold on to things that I sudn't, it is up to me to seek what is truly in my heart to know that I deserve greatness in every aspect of my life, including my love life. There is a huge difference between settling for a person b'cos of the love shared in the past, and loving someone b'cos they are who is meant for me. I never be afraid to let go... DA

I miss you... I miss being with you every second and moment everyday and every smile I see warming my heart knowing you love me and taking my hand for I was your guy. I need you back in my life. For I miss you so dearly....All the things you’ve done so clearly for me. I miss you. I loved the times i would walk you back home but wishing we could stay together all night and forever. I miss your hugs... I felt so safe when I was around you, but now that you’re gone. My worries are showing with everyone knowing not helping the way you would comfort me... I miss you. I miss you!! DA

You and I....

you said that you loved me, you said that you needed me, you said that you would never leave me… you said when i cry you cry, when i smile you smile, when i laugh you laugh, when im sad your sad.. because of everything i went through in the past i didn’t believe you..i walked away and you cried... you said i need you and for once in my life it was true... you needed me and i needed you... yes, You and I...

Suddenly...

I close my eyes and try to go to sleep but with the sadness inside I begin to weep.... Suddenly I remember what

u once said to me, Just meet me in the stars, waiting for u I will be... DA

i'm not supposed to...

I'm not supposed to think of u or wonder where u've been but no matter how hard I fight it thoughts of u always sneak in without me knowing.... DA

Tonight is a perfect time to tell u...

Tonight

is the perfect time to tell you, what you mean to me.... How I depend on you to love me for who I am and believe in me, for what I hope to be. How I feel loved each time you smile or touch my hand and, when I need someone to listen, I know you'll understand.... I celebrate my love for you, grateful that we have the happiness life gives to just a few... DA

Until the end of time...

I'm going to try to speak the words that my heart wants you to know.... I want you to see what you mean to me and why I love you so. Nobody else can know my thoughts and touch my soul like you can. No one can melt my heart like you do.... simply by holding my hand. With a loving glance or a tender kiss you make my cares disappear. Warm thoughts of you surround me and always keep you near. I need nothing more from you than this to know that you'll always be mine and the promise of your love in my life.... u

. DA

I think of u

With the start of each new day. I find myself thinking of u in the middle of my busy day, my mind wanders and I think of u... Out of nowhere I see ur smile, hear ur laugh and I think of u... Life is beautiful now because I fall in love all over again each time I think of u.... DA

Jika....

jika memang nafas ku ini harus pisah dari ragaku.. Aku tidak akan pernah berhenti mencintai kamu... DA

Tenangkan hati ini...

Lelah rasa nya hati ini selalu untuk disakiti, tapi aku harus berdiri dan jalani segala rasa sakit dihati meskipun sekarang aku sendiri aku harus mengakhiri untuk tenangkan hati ini... DA

ikhlas

Aku berikan yang terbaik untuk dia yang bukan lagi menjadi milikku dan aku mulai belajar ikhlas dan berusaha keras meninggalkan bayang-bayang dia tanpa harus melupakan dia yang akan selalu ada di hati ku dan aku pun akan tetap tersenyum walaupun aku tidak bisa menjaga dia dan tak lagi bersama dia... DA

Dear Kamu....

Dear kamu...


How cud u never care about me... I’m dying inside, which you will never see... u never even call. Just to talk to me... u don’t text either. So ur love I don’t see, u’re not the one who wipes my tears at night nor are u the one who chases away my frights....

Dear kamu...


How cud u just leave me like this, u didn’t even come back for one last kiss... how cud u have a partner and just leave that’s no way to act, that’s no way to behave....

Dear kamu....
I want to know why u decided not to be part of my life, I want to know why u have no heart at all and how u can have a best friend, a brother, a soulmate, a partner, a lover... u don’t see, texting, or call?....





DA

Although u're gone, u still feel so close

The memories of u are engraved within my heart, Nothing in this world cud ever tear us apart b'cos u’re not here, Some think that u’re gone but I tell them better Let’s say u just moved on. I try to stay positive to keep u watching over me, Some think it’s crazy but I know u’ve got to be. I remembered how we were pretty close, I hope I can say u were so beautiful... I’ll never forget those days.... U were such a fun person and ur personality was great. All the guys loved u most. I know how u were and how u were so shy but I wish u told me one thing.... I wish u wud have said goodbye... I spend most of my time thinking of u and reminiscing of the things we said we’d do. What I wudn’t give to be in ur place, I’d give the whole world... Just to see ur face. Some say I’m going crazy or maybe insane but they don’t understand this heartbreaking pain... u were my drug, my source to get high but I really do wish u wud have said goodbye.... I’ve been thinking of the days when we used to sit together. I now cherish those moments... I also hope u remember. U’re always in my head and I can’t get u out, I get so mad at times. That I just want to shout. I feel as if pieces are missing like a book with no end. Too late to tell u how I feel..... Now and forever, only a friend... My old memories of u fly by me fast and everything I remember of u is now in the past. All the sweet thoughts of u brings a tear to my eye. I miss u so much, I hope heavens good to u and I hope u get ur Wings and maybe when I get there u can show me all the beautiful things. I really don’t want to say it but please wait for me knowing ur up there. I really can’t wait to be... That day when angels came down was a sad day of grief. When I first found out I stood in disbelief.... Although u’re gone, u still feel so close. Maybe it’s the thought of missing u the most... DA

love, faith, hope and happiness.....

I take a deep breathe and sigh.... I picture ur smile, the innocence in ur laughter in my mind... I think of how u have brought so much love, faith, hope and happiness into my life... DA

I had learn that when u walked out the door...

used to listen, when u said u wud always be there... I sit and think about all the times we had together, and how I thought I used to love you, when you used to care. I'd last through any weather.... but when the our storm came u left at the first sight of rain, leaving me here to deal with all this pain... I sat there crying thinking what did I do wrong, I looked to ur picture on the wall... so I wiped my tears and begin a new, new me, new life, and happiness without u... someday u'll miss me, but it will be never to late for us to be i guess. U didn't know what I was missing but now u do, I love you too that's why I'm letting u go, I'm a hell of a good man it's too bad it took u this long to know.... what we had is in the past, it's a reason we didn't last, but whenever u get discouraged bout why we're through, I just look in the mirror b'cos it's all on me... I hope next time i learn from my mistakes and i did learn from my fault, Please always remember this I love u.... I love me more, I had to learn that when u walked out the door.....

DA

The most amazing moment was when we met, The love and time I have shared with u have all been without regret... In spite of our love... I am painfully aware that u are gone and no longer there... u made up ur mind and u went away... as things started to not feel right... I know it's pointless to wish for u to stay b'cos at the end of the tunnel there is no more light. Often I don’t know what to say or do.. So many times, I have cried over u... Emptiness and sorrow is now a part me, Since I have to accept, that we will never be...but... Our memories continue to live in my heart. As I wish u well, with ur brand-new start. Please, believe me when I say, u will always be with me come what may... DA

Why it has to be me...?

I am sitting alone and silently, I recall a special part of my life.... That part came unexpectedly and lasted only for a while. My life has been quite and peaceful until that unforgettable moment, u came like a silhouette of my soul then u walked right through my heart. Everyday was a picture of happiness, there's no hint of loneliness... Everything was wonderful b'cos I spent it with u but then, as time goes by, ur feelings begin to fade away... my tears fall down one by one and it kills me when u said say goodbye. Every time my mind says move on, my heart says hold on... so many questions inside my head but the answers are all up to u... Loving someone like me, maybe without boundaries makes u think deeply, why...

DA

the same way....

I'm wishing that someday, u'll miss me terribly that no matter how hard u'll look for me, u wudn't find me...b'cos I want u to miss me the same way I'm missing u... DA

i"ll never know...

I try to talk to u, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid u don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out and tell u how I feel-like how I miss u and how I love you despite my broken heart and how I need u in my life. especially how much I want u but those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside.... Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside u too...

DA

My promises

Promise that u'll never go.... Promise I will always be in ur heart... Promise that u'll do u best... Promise to put the games to rest.... Promise I'll be the one u... Promises are love will grow to come... Promise that u'll be my mate... Promise to love me with all it take.... Promise if we grow apart u'll never break my heart... Promise if u have to got u sud carry with u my soul... Promise I will love u too... Promise I won't break ur heart... Promise if I have to go I will take with me u soul... DA

This is my promise

I will love you with all my heart,  To have forever - never to part.... This is a promise engrained in me,  Take my hand and let it be.  I will go to the ends of the earth if that is what u need, Just say yes and let ur soul take the lead. This is a promise at the core of me, Kiss my lips and let this be....

I will wipe ur tears with no questions asked, No more will ur feelings be masked. This is a promise I make to u, Look into my eyes and follow through. I will know how to hold u... just by the look in your eye, I will never forget - not even on the day that I die....

This is a promise of my passion for u, smile at me and make it true. I will support u even when I cannot support myself anymore, I will dig deeper and find the hidden strength at my inner core. This promise means I sacrifice all of me for u, Understan

this- and make our lives anew....

I will love u with everything so deep inside and to only u - this gift I shall confide. This is a promise so incredibly real, kiss me my love and u shall feel...

if there’s something i can do, let me know

i feel guilty for making u upset, i really didn’t mean to... I realize I’ve started taking our time together for granted and I need to stop. other than saying I’m sorry, I don’t know how else to apologize... if there’s something i can do, let me know... u know how to reach me... DA

hopefully no glass separating our eyes....

I only need to be around u to make me very happy. My thoughts still slip back to u, making life difficult...I go through my day,nothing is joyful. I close my eyes and there u are, ur crooked smile, tracing ur lips, tasting u. It hurts for me not to see u or talk to u. I still cant stop dreaming of u. You’ve consumed my thoughts. Any chance I have to be around u, I will take... I’ll always be ur friend and be around for u . I am sorry if I have made things in ur life difficult. Looking forward to the next time we see each other,

DA

I chose not to hate u b'cos it leaves less space for me to love other people...

I can't believe u wud do this to me... I can't believe all u have done. We had a future planned and u chose what u chose. Seems so easy for u to move on... Maybe u didn't really love me. I know that i loved u and still do but i know we will never be again... Some days are harder than others. Everything makes me think about u. I chose not to hate u b'cos it leaves less space for me to love other people. I know what I am worth and how good i treated u. Whoever ur with or whomever u find may be great but there will always be little things u miss about me... One day u will want me back and I will be in the arms of someone who deserves me...

DA

Dear Kamu....

dear kamu.... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Monday, February 13, 2012 at 11:11pm · Dear kamu, I will always regret that day that I broke up with u. u meant so much to me. u're my world, my love, and my best friend. I remember those days. Those days were the best days that I've ever had in my life... I love you so much and I miss u. I miss the little things u did like calling me Bear... tears come out of my eyes as soon as u said “it’s over” and i wanted to drop down on my keens and beg u to forgive me. Every time I'm away from u I feel so empty... I know I have made a ton of mistakes but I wud like to put those behind us, if at all possible, so we can move on with the rest of our lives, live on with the good and leave the bad behind us. I know that will be hard, especially after all that I have done... i wud turn back time and redo all the wrongs I have done to u and make them right. I just hope u find it in ur heart to forgive me for all the things I've done to u and take me back. I sud have done a lot of things better now I will do better... I know that u wud never come back to me because u're afraid that I might hurt u again, but that's not true. I wud never hurt u ever again if u give me another chance... I love you more today then I did before, it just gets stronger with time... it doesn't fade. I will always love u, this much I'm sure of. I wudn't ask for diamonds, gold or a million rupiahs. None of that cud make me as happy as I wud be to just have u in my life once again! Love always, DA

The Guy is me...

The Guy is me... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Tuesday, February 28, 2012 at 9:09pm · the guy who seemed unbreakable is finally starting to break, the one who seemed so strong its crumbling apart, the one who always laughs it off is constantly crying, the guy who wud never give up from what his love, finally quit trying.. the guy is me... DA

Thank You for loving me...

Thank You for loving me... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Tuesday, February 28, 2012 at 10:34pm · Dear kamu.... U came to my life unexpectedly... u came to my private world with ur understanding heart and I told to myself that u were different from the very start... u listened without judgment to what I had about me to say and even after I was done with my immaturity, craziness, in short u saw all the good and the bad, yet u never let go... We developed a friendship with love, with no walls to build or guard, I’ve grown to love u with no hidden agenda but with only the real me... only me, I let u see and know the guy who never let anyone to his world... Letting u get to know about me what most people never see... I’m writing this to u for u to understand, That spending time with u is so precious, Seriously... I never want to let go ur hand... The time that we spend apart can't equal when we talked and exchanging messages. That’s what I felt and feel... I want to thank u for always understanding me and loving me... ur the man I wished I wud have met to share my lifeI miss u so much but when we meet again will be so much better...I am sorry for everything. I don’t know really anymore if am talking with sense now... All I know now is I want my old self back. The guy who will just be content looking his partner's families are happy and let his own happiness to be his partner's happiness... he's still needs his partner to carry our private world... He tried to share his world again with his partner but it never worked. Not b'cos of u I know that.... It is ME and no one else fault.... I love you so much that’s why I’m letting u go.... Letting u go b'cos I know am not good enough for u... and i know what's best for u... Thank you for all the love u gave me… I will treasure all the good and bad moments we shared together… Thank you for loving me... DA

Hati ku....

Hati ku.... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Friday, March 23, 2012 at 4:01pm · Diriku dan Hatiku... Diriku senang karena hati..... Diriku bahagia karena hati.... DIriku bahagia karena hati... DIriku mencintai karena hati... DIriku dicintai pula karena hati... DIriku membenci karena hati... DIriku dibenci karena adanya hati... DIriku menangis karena adanya hati... DIriku ditangisi karena adanya hati... Diriku kecewa karena hati.... Diriku menyesal karena hati.... Diriku marah karena hati.... Semua itu karena kamu, hati.... Hidup ku terpaut pada kamu, hati.... DIriku takan bisa hidup karena kamu, hati.... karena DIriku hidup karena kamu, hati....Terima kasih diriku masih memiliki mu, hatiku.... DA

There is no “I fucked up. I’m sorry... I love you” bullshit...

There is no “I fucked up. I’m sorry... I love you” bullshit. by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Thursday, April 5, 2012 at 12:14am · I know I fucked up... I know I made a huge mistake. I was a big enough person to admit that... I apologized. I promised u that things wud get better.... The problem is, only one of us wants to fix things. Only one of us has the strength, the want, and the desire to be together like we said we would. It’s not fair that u’re doing this. It’s not fair that u’re putting me through this. It’s not fair that I changed my whole life plan, and sat around waiting for a year for u to come back home, just so that u cud tell me u’re done 2 years into being home. It’s complete bullshit... I hate myself for ever caring about u. I hate myself for loving u the way I do... u’re so easy minded about everything, while I beat myself up for everything, my fault or not. I can’t take the constant turmoil anymore. I can’t take u going back... I need stability. I need love. I need intimacy. I needed u and I end up with nothing... u’ve made ur decision, and that’s it. There’s no turning back. u wanted to be without me, and that’s exactly what u’re gonna do. There is no “I fucked up. I’m sorry... I love you” bullshit. I bought that too many times. I’m going to move on with my life. WIthout u.... DA

u are the one person i wanted to spend the rest of my life walking up too...

u are the one person i wanted to spend the rest of my life walking up too... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Wednesday, April 4, 2012 at 11:56pm · after all the hurt and pain that i suffered from ur actions... I know u suffered also from mine. why is it that I miss u even more, i was then and still am i love with u... why do i search for u?... b'cos for the first time in my life I felt safe and loved... u are the one person i wanted to spend the rest of my life walking up to u... u have left such a hole in my heart in ur absent... why is it that i have over come every obstacle in my life that was holding me down except u !.... did it ever cross ur mind that maybe u are the one for me and that's why I dont hate u, that u can't be replaced.. i am so picky when it comes to guys and u touch and hit ever scence of what turns me on, i am living my life but their is someting missing and I so badly want to be at ur side anymore, I pray that u're okay... I can't begin to let someone else in b'cos u are so deep in my heart. I don't hate u, i hate this feeling i have and wish i knew what to do bout u... DA

kau bahagia ku...

kau bahagia ku... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Sunday, March 11, 2012 at 10:54pm · Aku merasakan sebuah kata bahagia, kebahagiaan saat pertama kali kau datang didalam hidupku, menjalin sebuah kisah cinta yang indah saat ku bersamamu, kau telah berikan semua apa yang selama ini aku cari di dunia ini. Aku ingin kau selalu ada di sisiku, menemani aku yang selalu cinta padamu, aku tak ingin kau pergi dari hidupku, karena semua keindahaan yang kini aku rasakan pun ikut bahagiai. Aku akan berikan seluruh cintaku hanya ke padamu, akan aku berikan cinta suci ini, ku akan selalu setia padamu, menjagamu agar kau tak akan pergi dari hidupku...karena kau bahagia ku... DA

I will fall for u all over again...

I will fall for u all over again... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Friday, May 4, 2012 at 9:34pm · I wonder what the days will bring, Never knowing when the phone will ring.... I wait for u to take my heart, but it seems u have had it from the start. I've tried to let others in, But I cannot trust them until this comes to an end... We have tried so many times, but once in a while, things tire. I really want to be with u, but you want to be with others too... No matter what happens in the end, I will fall for u all over again... DA

one day u will want me and accept me back...

one day u will want me and accept me back... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Thursday, April 5, 2012 at 12:02am · I still can't believe u wud do this to me... I can't believe all u have done. We had a future planned and u chose what u chose... Seems so easy for u to move on, maybe u didn't really love me... I know that i loved you and still do but i know we will never be again... some days are harder than others... everything makes me think bout u, I chose not to hate u b'cose it leaves less space for me to love other people... I know what I am worth and how good i treated u. Whoever ur with or whomever u find may be great but there will always be little things u miss bout me. One day u will want me and accept me back and I will be in the arms of someone who deserves me... DA

important things i know...

In loving relationships, there are several important things i know... One of these is that the key to a successful relationship is being able to apologize. The more intimately i am involved with another person, the more difficult it becomes to say I'm sorry... i am aware of ur faults and u are aware of mine. It is very easy in the heat of battle to hurt my partner in a very sensitive place... As my partner, u trusted me by forming a relationship and letting urself be vulnerable. When i say, I'm sorry, it must be done with the sensitivity to understand the line that was crossed... DA

i am sorry i was stupid

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell u what it is for me... love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about my self, including the things i might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at me... DA

Love is...

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell u what it is for me...  love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about my self, including the things i might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at me...

 DA