only a Man like u can make a Man like me cry silently....

by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Wednesday, August 25, 2010 at 11:12pm

I crawl into bed where u used to sleep and I rest my head on the pillow where urs used to be.. I close my eyes and imagine u there Lying next to me... It doesn’t take long For the memories to come back to me and I cry, though I try not to but it’s u that I need no space or time will change this simple truth... So, I cry... No one knows the emotions that fill my heart. No body cud possibly understand!... I wudnt know where to start. B'cos when im all alone, I enter my own circle... u’re the reason why I cry the way I'm feeling... It's quite hard to describe, I feel so alone and lost in this unbearable life... too many twisted emotions. When i cry... I cry for those that ive lost and can not let go for those that have died and for those that still live...

Wish there was something I cud do to completely erase all these thoughts. How long must I feel this pain... Sometimes I cry, late at night when I’m all alone, no one to hold me tight wondering what is my purpose, by and by and if it makes much difference whether I live or die?.. I cry not b'cos the love is gone, but I cry b'cos our love for u is so strong... I cry not for u, but I cry for us. I cry not b'cos u are gone from us, but b'cos u left us behind.... I cry b'cos I don't know the beauty and love that u feel and see. I cry not b'cos I think u're sad, but b'cos we both are sad... As I struggle along, doing this all alone takes its toll on my very being to those who may be weaker, this life isn’t worth the fight as for me, I still stand strong so this is why... If u cud see me now, u wud see my silent tears... concealed behind my fears. Yes I know it’s hard to believe, That a man like me... still needs a man like u, to do all the silly things that u used to do. I heard quite often “men don’t cry” Though no one ever told me why, So when I fell and skinned a knee... No one came to comfort me...

I cry for all of those who loved u so dearly, I cry not for where u are, but for where we are even though we are not in the same direction anymore. Every tear drop that falls are tears of joy and of gladness that u were such a wonderful part of my live. I cry b'cos i am not with u to experience the beauty and splendor of a place so wonderful and simply perfect.... I've cryed so many tears... I cry for u in the dark. I cry for u my other half... I still hold ur love extra tight. To keep it safe throughout the night... I hate when I cry, I hate when I'm scared.... My life is going by, I can't feel anything, anywhere.... I'm sad and depressed, I'm weak an abused... I'm told... I'm bad....I just don't know what to do....

The pain I have suffered throughout my life keeps playing through my mind, the stress and strife. Why is this emptiness constantly eating at me with no end in sigh... it just won’t let me be. I stand out all alone in the rain, knowing that my love for u, has made me go insane. These tears are calling out, I’m sorry... I don’t mean to pout. u did this to me, I was blind but now I see... u made me weak u made me cry... u were u and I was I... My silence has become my pain, now I find myself, missing ur voice... wanting ur touch...needing ur love...

Sometimes it feels so right it feels wrong! Sometimes I sit for hours and cry along to our song! Dreaming away I feel happy and free. I wait for the day when we will be but sud that day not come for a centuary, I promise I shall wait... I promise I will love u for eternity. I'll love u through happiness and hate! So now im waiting to own ur heart, and untill that day. I'll forever cry for u in the dark!

I can't stand looking in ur eyes only to see all of my fears. How can u believe the smile on my face. When u can clearly see the pain in my eyes, Take a step back and look deeper... u're the reason why I cry... No matter how much I try and try, This one thing is true, I can never stop loving u, I just hope you can realize this thing I do... I’m a man, but I cry for u…

When i cry, It's for them to know i still care... So i'll continue to fight for u... So i can shed my tear's... So they know that i still care for u...

For man like me... do cry when i can see, i loss of immorality and tears will come in endless streams when mindless fate destroys my dreams. The world moves so fast and it wud rather pass me by than to stop and see what makes me cry... It's painful and sad, sometimes i cry and no one cares about why... only A man like u can make a man like me cry silently....



DA

Just say Yes or No....

by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Thursday, August 19, 2010 at 4:50pm

u already knew what is My dream? Since the First time My dream is only to spend some time alone with u. Yeah...Only & only if u want me to.... If someday I'll show u my passion, u will surely go nuts... Just dare to ask me only if u have the guts b'cos there is so much of fire in my heart...

And don't even try to break my heart again or else... I'll hit ur heart hard like a dart... Be with me & be my very true friend, All u have to do is to follow my heart and i will take a good care of ur heart too... Don't just play with me, as it is my life, ur sadness is cutting my heart into pieces like a sharp knife... Don't be unhappy, as I'll be sad, Please don't leave me or else I'll turn up to be bad...

All I want u to be my real true date, Considering the fact that u can be my soul mate... On my date with u I'll serve u with the best of wine. I'll make sure that everything goes smoothly & by the end you feel fine...

It is my life & I love to live this way, If u want something else then don't hesitate to say... Why can't we enjoy our life to the fullest when we can? I am saying so much coz it takes a lot of courage to be a man... Don't say no as now my heart will cry & scream, Just say yes if u really care for me & fulfill my such a lovely dream...

Just say Yes or No.....

DA

What my love is all about....

by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Thursday, August 19, 2010 at 5:40pm

u may never know what my love is all about, It is so mysterious that it can change my complete personality inside out... It is a very powerful magical tool in my heart's box, My love knows all ways coz it is so clever & witty just like a wild fox. If u want me then all u have to do is just look up and if we want to be together then why can't we hook up...

I'll get serious for u then I won't care about anyone, I'll do whatever it takes to fulfill our relationship with surprises & real fun... I love u not b'cos of ur looks but coz of ur heart's beauty... One day for sure u'll realize that the love I gave u is something that in this world today u can never find... Love is so magical that it can open ur heart's gate.

Just give me ur love in whatever form u can, I'll prove it somehow that I am only your best man. If u have the guts then choose me, But if u are afraid of anything so it would be wise to loose me... If u are willing to be the love of my life, I'll definitely make sure to make u "my love". Ask me anything & don't be afraid...

I present myself to others the way I like, If u want to know more about me then all u need is a ride on my heart, my mind, my soul... I don't like selfish people & I don't like to fight, I only listen to my heart & do whatever I feel is right...

love
DA

promise that i made to u.....

by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Thursday, August 19, 2010 at 11:54pm

This is my promise to u, to prove my love so true... I vow to do the little things to show u every day...

promises i made to u....

I am Andre H.R Siswosaputro...

promise to always lift u up when u are feeling down...

promise to stand, right beside u...

promise to kiss, u as long as I can...

promise I will cry, for the love in u...

promise to sigh, for the wonderful things u do...

promise to spend time, with u...

promise to wipe your tears when u feel u need to cry...

promise to keep u smiling to show off that beautiful smile u have...

promise to be ur strength whenever u fall weak...

promise to be ur voice when u can't find the words...

promise to be ur eyes when u cannot see...

promise to be ur ears when u cannot hear...

promise to always tell u what's real when u want to hear the truth...

promise to be ur dream catcher to chase away u're every fear...

promise to be ur smile when u're frowning...

promise to give u the best of myselfand to ask of u no more than u can give...

promise to respect u as ur own person and to realize that ur interests, desires and needs are no less important than my own...

promise to share with u my time and my attention and to bring joy, strength and imagination to our relationship...

promise to keep myself open to u, to let u see through the window of my world into my innermost fears and feelings, secrets and dreams...

promise to always cheer u up when u are down and blue...

promise to give you faith when u are feeling insecure...

promise to keep u sturdy when u are feeling unsafe...

promise to never let u suffer, for I will suffer for u...

promise to listen when u need to talk to me in late night...

promise to tell u no lies Just what is true...

promise to always lend u my shoulder for when u need to cry...

promise to always hold ur hand when u need my support...

promise to grow along with u, to be willing to face changes in order to keep our relationship alive and exciting...

promise to love you in good times and bad, with all I have to give and all I feel inside in the only way I know how, completely and forever...

promise to give u my full attention no matter what it is u want, or what I am doing....

promise to always care for u wherever u are...

promise to always be there...

promise to never hurt u and never break ur heart...

promise to love u, for now and always...



I can't promise u a life of sunshine...

I can't promise riches, wealth, or gold...

I can't promise u the world...

I can't promise u the sky...

I can't promise u that we will never fight...

I can't promise u that I will never cry...

But...

I can promise u that I will always be true to u and...

I promise that I will always love u more than anything with all my heart, no matter what happens or what we go through...

I promise to give u my happiness life to make u happy...

I promise u that no one will ever come between us, for u are the only man in my life...

I can promise all my heart's devotion, A smile to chase away ur tears of sorrow... A love that's ever true and ever growing... A hand to hold in urs through each tomorrow...

I promise to be here for u until the day I die... baby I'll love u until the end of time!

Ill be ur guardian angel...

That's my promises that i made to u!! My vow of what I will do. I believe that none cud love u quite as deeply as I do... my love, there's still so much that I have yet to learn. I can't give u perfection but this I promise I will do, I will spend my life time learning how to give my love to u... This is my eternal wish, All b'cos I truly do love u...

Commitment is a promise, a potential made in the hearts of two people who love each other and takes a lifetime to fulfill... It is not only having a very bestfriend, a trully brother, a right partner, an amaizin lover in urlife... it is being a very bestfriend, a trully brother, a right partner, an amaizin lover in urlife...

trully love u,

ANDRE H.R SISWOSAPUTRO

only u.....

by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Saturday, August 21, 2010 at 2:04am

A lot has happened, im not allowed to see u... im not allowed to talk to u. my feelings still have not gone away, they say everything will get better in time - time heals everything... if thats true why do i cry more with each day that passes. i've tried so hard to defend u to defend u against everything, i dont let them see how i really feel, i dont let them know i need u, i feel physical pain, i see the unseen, i know what i need, i know who i need, ive been called weak for letting u "walk all over me" but i know im strong... i am strong enough to know people make mistakes...

The smile upon ur face when were arm in arm, The warmth of ur embrace. The beauty of ur charm all these things I love, I want u in my life, I want u to never let me go and always hold me tight... The smile that u give me when we are together is the one that never leaves. I want to stay with u forever for u id give it all to live and to die. Id never let u fall... I'll always be by ur side, Id cherish every moment and never wuld I lie for u I wud do my best and always I will try. So this is how I feel for u... It drives me insane maybe one day u can look at me and tell me u feel the same...

Only the touch of u frees my heart and mind... Only the touch of u takes away the crying times, Only the feel of u calms my soul inside, Only the care of u makes me feel alive, Only the love of u makes me feel like I'm a man, Only u believe in me enough to tell me that I can, u believe in me sometimes more than I do myself, u encouraged me to take my dreams down from off the shelf, when others turned their backs on me and told me I was through, Only u stood by me Baby... Truly, Only u...

When no one seems to be listening, u hear. When I hurt but don't show it, u know. When I turn away to hide my tears, u see. When I feel like I can't get through to anyone, u understand... ur eyes glow just for me, and I know u're proud. u flash ur magical, healing smile my way and I know everything will be all right. u know everything there is to know about me... u know what worries me, what keeps me up at night and what shames me so badly that I can't share it with anyone. Most importantly, though, none of those things bother u...

i love u... i need u, i have never fought so hard... i've never felt that feeling i feel when we are together, i wish this fighting would stop... i wish u were here... i want to be able to show u. nobody will ever feel the loneliness i feel when u walk away baby...

I just want to be beside u everywhere as long as we're together, honey, I don't care 'Cause u've started something, oh, can't u see? That ever since we met, u've had a hold on me. No matter what u do, I only want to be with u...

Best

DA

note for my beloved one...

I Do Love u!... I wrote this note for u. However, keep in mind it is a note about my love for u... I love u b'cos for what u are. I love u b'cos u have the beautiful eyes, i love u b'cos u are so special for me... i can see something special in ur heart... Before u get mad, keep in mind this is a note about my love for u. I don't love u for ur beautiful smile. I don't love u b'cos u wear the most expensive clothes... I don't love u b'cos ur face is always flawless. I do love u...

I know I love u b'cos when I am around u my heart skips a beat, although I know I am standing still, I feel as if I can float and touch the heavens. I cry at the fact that there aren't words to describe my love for u, b'cos when I am around u, I have the need to touch u, to hold u...

I see u as a beautiful man of Kindness and love with a big heart for others that ur always thinking of... I love how u smile it makes ur eyes shine and twinkle or ur laugh when its funny if its not just a wrinkle... I love ur way of hugging and holding me close or staring at my face and smiling, loving me most... My heart is blooming of happiness when I'm in ur heart and cries out for ur love when we are apart... u mean more to me than anything in life , I'm happy God's did make u my very best friend, my great brother, my amaizin partner, my beautiful soulmate and my gorgeous lover....

Tell me what u want, tell me what u need b'cos I can't read minds, and I simply can't see. I can't see u, ur eyes, or the way to ur heart. i wish u cud see me, and the way that I feel but even if u cud it wudn't matter u're leaving for awhile, going somewhere important

somewhere u belong, somewhere u long to be... but before u leave, tell me. tell me the truth, not some crummy lies tell me what ur heart says, not ur mind stop with the logic, it doesn't make sense. I remember long ago u loved me. I think u still do, so stop... stop denying ur heart, let me in stop trying to push me away...

I just need u to know that I always am here, I will never leave ur heart nor create any fear... u gave me ur heart and I gave u mine, I hope that u still love me till the end of time. I want to die in ur arms ... If I had one wish, I wish that I cud..

I Love u... I do love u, and for that, I thank u. ..



Best

DA

My Dreams, My Wishes, and My Six Silent Tear....

by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Sunday, August 22, 2010 at 1:58am

Since u're gone there is an empty space... since u're gone the world is not the same. I go back to the places we've been. It feels like u're still there... I live all those moments again wishing u were here...

Last night before went to bed thoughts of u filled my head, though I have not cried this way in many years onto my pillow fell six silent tears...

The 1st, was for ur smile that I miss and ur tender lips I long to kiss... The 2nd, was for ur angle face and thoughts of ur loving embrace... The 3rd, came as no suprise as I thought of ur beautiful eyes... The 4th, came rolling Instead of my pillow, it sud have been u I was holding... The 5th, came for one reason alone, I felt my love for u wasn't fully shown... I really love and miss u my dear and there just fell my 6th silent tear...

Since u're gone there is a lonely heart, since u're gone nothing is like it was there are memories all over the place bringing it back all so clear... I remember all of those days wishing u were here...

If dreams were given to a lonely man and a lonely man's dreams came true, I'd force myself to sleep all the time just so I cud dream of u... If wishes were given to a lonely man and I was given just two... I'd wish for u to always love me and the other I'd give to u... If my tears cud write a love song for u... I'd write a love song for u, It wud explain just how I feel inside and how much I love u too but, My dreams are only dreams and My wishes seldom come true, My tears can't write a love song but when they fall, they fall for u...

Since u're gone there is a heart that bleeds since u're gone... I'm not the man I used to be, I follow u're steps in the blue sky but the traces disappear, we know what we've lost when it's gone... I'm wishing u were here....

Every tear I shed says, "I LOVE YOU", u are my everything and nothing else matters, Every tear I shed is for u alone my love, Every tear flowing down from my eye comes from my true heart showing my true love for u, Every tear makes me love u more and more, and my heart has more than enough room to keep on loving u forever...

All those lonely nights... I lied on my bed and always Dream, Wishing and cried in my Six Silent Tear, I still think of u...

Yes I do...

DA

Blassed to have u that's why... I choose u

by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Monday, August 23, 2010 at 12:06am

u were my choice, we declared our love.... Told the whole world so. We chose the song, Set the date to make it "just you 'n me". We cud hardly wait in life we make choices some good, some bad... I cherish every moment spent with u. From the moment we met I found myself drawn to u and cud not help but want to constantly talk to u. We spoke of traveling, food, culture, and everything else we were learning bout, ur kindness and thoughtfulness is part of what made it possible to share so much with u. Today I am here to tell u that I still be here to continue sharing all of me with u through the good and bad times ahead in our journey together. That I will take care of you along this journey and express the love that I have for u each and every day, no matter the place, or the language...



I love u for ur kindness, ur patience, ur gentleness, ur curiosity. I love u for the person u bring out in me, for making me feel at home when I'm with u...



I am so blessed to have u as my very bestfriend, my truly brother, my great partner, my true soulmate and my amaizin lover.. So blessed to have u to share this life and walk together, until the end... Many are happy while others are sad. Starting over again is after the fact there is not a way for me to go back. Reliving my life Is something I can't do But, if I cud, I'd still choose u...



I choose u today in witness of all the people who love us...

I choose u tomorrow in the privacy of our hearts...

I choose u in strength and weakness...

I choose u in health and sickness...

I choose u in joy and sorrow...

I choose u, for the person u are, A special man, the best by far...

I choose u, b'cos u have lighten my life and i have found my true happiness when i am with u...

I choose u, b'cos I talked to u and u always listen to my every word, Not batting an eye, at a word u heard...

I choose u, b'cos u are a special person...

I will choose u, over all others, every day for all the days of my life...



u had every part of me. I choose u now and every day I have....







DA

U o me nothing, as I o u for so many things.....

U o me nothing, as I o u for so many things.....
by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Tuesday, August 17, 2010 at 12:36am



Love is such a precious gift one thing in my life and I know is true...

i see the mirror now, nothing's changed... im still the same person, the same eyes, the same lips, the same ears, the same cheeks, the same nose... wait a minute, whats on my lips? "Smile"... why is that always there? never to go away? i dont know... when did this happen? the day i met u... u have'nt changed me sweetheart... u have just made me to be a better person...

i o u everything....

I o u a hand for u always helped out... u've helped me grow. U've been here for me through everything... u've shown me that u care, u have made such a difference... created so much good in my life!

I o u advice of that there's no doubt... For some reason Im still waiting and im going to find out why I feel like I sudn't give up...

I o u respect, for I got it from u... I never cud replace the look that's in ur eyes, I culd save up all my kisses till the end of timeAll my love in my life 'til it's through...

I o u trust, With my secrets u're true... I never cud repay the look that's in ur eyes. So to pledge myself to u wud be no sacrifice all my love in my life 'til it's through...

I o u knowledge, For u taught me so much... u lift my spirit in so many ways, u're clever, creative methods of gently molding ur beloved into ur vision of me: a strong, capable adult, very hardworker, an unselfish person of good character.

I o u love, As my heart you have touched... I cherish u and the love u have... I built a place that we could love each other. A place where we cud be safe and warm in our perfect emotion...

I o u my life, B'cos of all u do... u touch me like no one could ever do... I think of u often wherever I go, ur endless affection makes u special and rare. I'm always amazed by how much u care. What u've given to me I can never repay...

I owe u for a very bestfriend, a great Brother, a trully partner, an Amaizing lover and a Great Soulmate... Who is honest and true. I will still treasure u...

U o me nothing, as I o u for so many things.....
DA

I still believe ur my destiny...

I still believe ur my destiny...


Through so much drama and tears through everyone and the fight-ful fears, u took my hand looked me in the eyes and said "don't worry baby its all lies"...

i know its all lies cause of the way it is. i can't help but melt into ur kiss
through all the problems and lies... i know its wrong but i can't help but wonder why...

i still believe that u are my destiny that me & u were so meant to be even with the drama and the stupid things and all the stuff in between...

i love u and just the fact of tomorrow makes me live through sorrow just knowing seeing u're face the next day makes me go on yeah that I'd have to say...

we'll make it through i know we will no matter what our love can kill, I'm here for u, u're here for me that's all i need u're my destiny...

ur'destiny
DA

Love, Need, Miss & Need U.....

This sadness in me right now, Is giving me pain in a way that I don't know how.
It's just that I'm alone with nobody else,My life sure is colorless. I don't know what or who I need. I just want my heart stop the bleed. It hurts all over me again and again, I hope somebody cud lend me a helping hand...

An injury I have in my heart. I wish somebody cud repair its parts but nobody sure is with me right now, I just want to see u somehow. These tears I cry for u, Are not lies but they are true. Alone I cry b'cos of loneliness, Right now, I am lifeless...

I miss u more than ever now... I miss u b'cos I really need u somehow... I miss u and ur touch... I miss u for to me, u mean so much and I have for every single moment, right from the start. I need u especially now that I'm alone, Can't even talk to u on the phone anymore. Hope that someday, u'll be here beside me, Here with me to wipe off my tear...

I want u to caress my lips the way u always do, I want u to look into my eyes and see my love for u. I want u to hold me close to ur heart. I want u to know that I love u, need u, miss you, and want u...


love, need, miss & want
DA

Unsent letter for u....

Dear u,

I am putting this in writing for when the time is right for u to read it. I am for once going to tell u what the past couples months has been like for me. Nothing held back. Not to hurt u or make u feel bad but b'cos I need u to know how what once seemed so simple to me, 2 people with an amazing connection emotionally and physically cud become so complicated and messed up... and im very sorry...

That night when u got to my room and we just talked and talked, I felt an immediate connection and comfort with u. As if we had known each other for a long time… but had the fun of still getting to know u. I waited for u to kiss me, feeling drawn to u, until u couldn’t wait any more and made a move urself. u were what I considered the perfect kisser, in perfect rhythm with me as if u cud read my mind, and so sexy...That night was amazing, I really noticed how well we fit together, perfectly, and how good u felt inside me. u made me orgasm with no effort, just b'cos of how we fit together and how connected I felt to u. Something I had never experienced or even come close to before....

I know that u think by breaking up with you that i thought those almost 6 months with u was nothing... u are wrong, i regret it but i know u wud never take me back. i find myself constantly looking for u when im out around the places we used to hang. thinking i see u when a Harrier drives by just because that was the car u wud always pick me up in. i thought we had a future together. u said that u wud take me to care of me while im dying and i still want to believe that u wud take me back. that we cud pick up where we left off...

I loved u, u don’t speak to me anymore, and every time I hear your name i want to cry... u loved me so much that time, asking me out every single week but I turned u down over and over. I was afraid,
b'cos I loved u too much.... Now I have nothing...

u are the first guy I ever cried over and the worst part is u won’t be the last...I’d do anything to be near u. I miss u like hell, like part of me is missing. I miss seeing u, I miss hearing u speak, I miss believing u cud save me. I can’t breathe when I think that u’re leaving, that this is the last time I’ll ever see u. I can’t even get myself to ask u to keep in contact, I can’t even get myself to tell u how I feel. If I close my eyes all I see is ur face smiling at me..

When u told me that u loved me it was the happiest I have been in a long time. I cant really describe the feelings i had, but how can u describe love anyway? I was so scared and happy at the same time, I didn’t know thats possible... what if i’m not good enough for u? I’m not a great person, and u are so amazing in my eyes... u are everything I want...

i don’t know why the most stressful thing i have to deal with every day without u is missing you. i don’t know why u’re in my dream every night. i don’t know why every time u leave my room, i bury my head in the pillow u slept on to sniff every last scent u leave.i don’t know why i keep every artifact from our outings together. i don’t know why u make me smile every moment i see u. i don’t know why every type of kiss makes me feel all the same....

i still love u and miss u terribly. u were my first Real love and even though oneday i have a new boyfriend, he cud never replace u.... Please don’t leave me. I need u more than I need air but I guess ur early decision is something u have no control over. Just don’t forget me, okay? I loved u... I will do my best to give my heart to someone new, but I now realize that I have to accept that there won’t be another u and me. That happens once in a lifetime and I am glad it happened with u...

I hope to see u again one day. So I can show u what u have meant to me throughout the pastcouples months of my life. I know u have forgiven me, but one day I hope u will be able to look me in the eyes and not see the man that broke ur heart several months ago. I hope u see me as who I am today and that u’ll be able to hold me for a second. I remember that last car ride with u. I remember crying so hard that my chest felt like it wud explode. I remember missing u like I had never before. I remember all the tender moments we shared. It doesn’t hurt to think bout them, b'cos I see them as the happy moments of my life...

I’m not sure why I’m telling u all of this. I just want u to know that u will forever remain a huge part of my life... u’re the man that saved me. It took me to realize this, but I have and u need to know that. One day it will all make sense and we will smile at each other b'cos we share a secret that no one else will ever know or understand...

And I love u for that. I love u for being who u are. I love u for loving me. I love u for writing a love story with me that was a million times better than anything cud have written. B'cos ours was real and it cud never really fade....

u will never read this, I know u won’t. I just thought I should spill my heart out somewhere before I explode in silence. I believe in u and ur ability and know u will be okay in the future. My heart just aches inside knowing that ur future doesn’t have me in it, that u’ll find someone someday who will love u more than I do and start a life with him. I might move on someday, in fact I will probably move on and forget that I ever loved u this much or that my heart ever hurt this much but until then all I know is that u are the one who got away. I let u go, I let u walk out of my life and I didn’t say one thing. u just walked awa and there’s nothing I culd’ve said to have made u stay. How is this happening to me? I never knew it cud hurt so much. I’ve never hurt this much over love before. I miss u like hell. Please, look in ur heart, I know u love me too. Tell me u do....

u’ll be in my heart forever. I can’t close my eyes without seeing ur smile, can’t close my eyes, can’t sleep, can’t daydream b'cos it’s all bout u, every damn thing, it all leads back to ur stupid face. I hate u so much b'cos u don’t feel the same way. I hate u for leaving and I hate u for not answering me. i ruined everything we had between us. I love u, honestly, truthfully, whole heartedly. I love u and that’s all I have left to say... u will forever be the one who showed me what an amazing connection is like. I will never be able to forget u Thank u for inspiring me to be better...

u were the one mistake that I let myself make....

Good luck sweetheart...i missed u so badly...
DA

u give my life meaning...

u give my life meaning with the little things u do. My heart is so much a part of u... u give me Strength which helps me get through, The days I can’t even talk to u. When I am down, u lift me up. When I am lonely, I need only think of u...

For each time I do, It’s like a light shining through waking my heart, with lovely thoughts of u... When I am hurt, ur love heals me. When I am in pain, ur love takes it away... Gives my heart, a chance to heal, Gives my soul, a reason to feel...

When u say, I love you... Three words, Make such a difference, In my life... I feel the power that flows from ur heart when those words escape from ur lips. For all the love u give to me just know, From my heart and soul, That love is returned...

DA

u are life....

u are my faith when I have no hope, u are my love when I have reasons to hate
u are my wind when I have no wings to soar...No one to call friend... u warm my heart when it is blue, u are my thoughts when I have no clue, u are my words when I can’t say I love u...

u are the light that completes me... u are my reflection in the dark, u are my heart
u are the shade of love that sets me free, u were my savior that passed me on the street. That saw through my mask I was wearing... u took away the lies,deceit I was carrying...

Now I am complete... Now I am free before u came onto my life, I was just half the man the man. I thought I cud be... Now I have new life, u are my life...

u are life...

DA

Just Wanted To Say

I just wanted to say, u've helped me in so many ways... u've lifted my spirits and my heart and I'm glad in my life ur a special part, u can see something in me,
That very few people take the time to see... u've made me have faith that I thought I had lost, That I'd yearned to regain no matter the cost...

Thank u for the time u have spared, To talk, listen and understand, and to care... u've enhanced my life and have given me hope, u've made me feel special...

I want u to know that I will be there, If u need to talk, someone who will care. A true friend is very hard to find and I want to thank u for being mine...

Love u dear, just like u were my lover.....
DA

ur love

i've seen my eyes how very sad and i know how it makes me feel so bad. I know... u don't really know what to do, To keep me from being so lonely and blue.,

u don't know much bout my life, am i a very ur bestfriend, a lil brother, a graet lover or am i ur an amaizin lover? What did i used to do for a living? And was i always so kind and giving?

i really make u wonder, What made me happy when i was with u...

my heart is filled with so much glee, If only u wud open it and set it free. Some very special times we share, That makes my heart have a big tear...

To me u are my very dear and I will always hold u near...

u know we all have good and bad days but its always my special little ways, that seem to brighten up my days. I want u to know, That my love for u cud only grow. There's a place in my heart, that only u cud fill that part...

u've touched me in a special way and to u, I cud never be able to repay! but Ill try my best to u I promise, to be open caring loving and honest. For u, ur love I will cherish and my love for u will never end. So when u see me filled with Glee! know that its u that makes my love So Free...



love
DA

Everything I Own...

u sheltered me from harm, Kept me warm...u gave my life to me.. Set me free, set me free, The finest years I ever knew Were all the years I had with u and I wud give anything I own, Give up my life, my heart, my own. I wud give everything I own just to have u back again....

u taught me how to love, what it's of... u never said to much but still u show the way and I know from watching u, Nobody else cud ever know, The part of me I can't let go and I wud give anything i own, Give up my life, my heart, my home... I wud give everything i own just to have you back again....

Is there someone u know... u're loving them so but taking them all for granted
u may lose them one day someone takes them away and they don't hear the words u long to say....

I wud give anything I own, Give up my life, my heart, my home. I wud give everything I own just to have u back again...just to touch u once again...

missed u
DA

u in my life...

this is a day that i think of u, this is a day when i dont know what to do...

i like everything bout u in every little way...
i like all the things u do and the words u say...
i like it how u hate to put ur hair down...
i like it how u look when you do ur little frown...
i like how when we walk in pe we hold each other softly...
i like how when we kissed u wanted more out of me...
i cant help to think about u today...
i just cant come up with the right words to say...

what i'm trying to say is that i want u with me and if u still want to wait im ok as long as u live ur life happily this is one of those days that i cant help to think this is one of those days when i say that my life stinks in the end i am always going to be here for u in the end...

this is a day that i think bout all the things that i like... this is a day that im grateful that i got u in my life..

i love u

DA

i'm Glad i'm Me....

Sunday, August'8th' 2010
at 11:56pm...

I know completely of how I feel or who I am...

I know I am very conventional...

i know I am a bit an emotional...

i know sometime I am possessive...

i know im a big ego person...

I admit I am too particular...

I dont try to act like someone else...

I dont try to dress like someone else...

I'm me,if u dont like it then just leave me alone...

I dont care bout what others think of me....

I'm happy just being me...

No one looks the way I do...

I have noticed that it's true...

No one walks the way I walk...

No one talks the way I talk...

No one plays the way I play...

No one says the things I say...

I am ready to know more and add to what I know already...

I am strong but I am scared....

I am tolerant of most but not of me...

I am waiting but not going any where...

I am quite but have a lot to say...

I am silent but screaming...

I am willing but I am patient...

I am confident ...

I am lonely but with people...

I am tired but cant sleep...

I am happy but I am troubled...

I am here but I am lost...

I am thoughtful with no answers...

I have conquered my fear of the night...

now I only fear of becoming nothing...

I have stopped pretending to be what I thought I was going to be...

and realized that I am only what I make of myself...

I am special... I am me, There's no one else I'd rather be!...

I'm me... myself...

Not u, him, them or anyone...

I see the future but don’t forget mistakes...

I learned a lot bout myself...

I am colorful in a world of black and white...

I am loving and I am loved...

I am free and I am faithful...

I am all this...

Im Glad I'm me....

take it or leave it....

Every second of every day...

Every second of every day...
I think of u in every way...
How you made me laugh, Smile, and giggle to the point of no end...
And how u were my greatest friend...

Every second of every day...
I think of u in every way...
How u talked to me late at night...
Telling me while holding me tight...
I hope everything for u goes all right!...

Every second of every day...
I think of u in every way...
How the way u talked was so smooth...
How u kept me calm when I was not...
How u made my skin feel extra hot...

Every second of every day...
I think of u in every way...
How much I miss u...
And how much I care...
How much I love u...
And how much u said...
You’d always be there...
How much I now realize ur gone...
And how much I now want to be dead
But…

Every second of every day...
I still think of u in every way...


DA

The Pain Inside



U know how I have always felt about u and u know what I wud do for u to understand what my heart is trying to say. I can only hope and pray on this day u'll understand.
I dream of u taking my hand and giving me that one chance... I have been waiting for.
Only if u wud listen maybe u cud open that door but I know what you are going to do...
u still wont me and if this is the way what u want... i compeletely understand, maybe it would be better this way but my heart doesn't see it that way. I wish u cud hold me and return the love I have for u, one day even before u left I thought of only u. Every night i cried for u, but for now that's okay...

Since it is my heart being buried in the dirt. Right? But one day when you feel this way about someone and they do too, you know what you are doing to me, u can think back and see how much i have been hurt. So even though I have no clue of what to do, I want u to remember...

I Will Always Love u!!!
DA

Why do i cry?

Sometimes we argue, I don't know why. Then I sit and wonder, why do I cry? I cry because I love u, I cry because I care, I cry b'cos I feel we have a love so rare, sometimes I'm afraid I'll turn around and u won't be there.

I love u every minute, I love u every day, I even love u when we argue, I love u when we play... Sometimes I've wondered do you love me too, then I look in ur eyes and I know it's true. So when I say something a little crazy or I do something u don't feel is right... Please, let's try to work it out so we won't fight...

Some people take relationships for granted, it's sad to hear but true, I don't want this to happen, not with u... I want our relationship to be completely from the heart so we both know, no matter what we go through we will never part...


me
DA

loved me unconditionally in the same way u asked me...

From the beginning there was one thing u always asked. That was to give u my unconditional love. I never fully understood then what it meant. B'cos I took for granted u will always be there but today as u walk away leaving me behind... Having torn my heart beyond repair and as u ask me to sacrifice my precious love for u...

I now realise I have loved u unconditionally all along, I love u in spite of whether I see u or not. I love u regardless u beside me or not Just b'cos u are not here doesn’t mean u are not near, u know that in my heart we are never apart... u are in my air as the silence of my breathe. My love for you is unconditional...

As u are always on my mind, but will never ask u to think of me. I think of u from night to day and day to night, u will never know I am thinking of u every moment even right now. My love for you is unconditional...

B'cos u know I can love only u, whether u return my love or not... My love for u is unconditional,B'cos I will always hold on to all ur promises and words... Will remember and cherish them over and over again everyday even though I know they are all just broken promises. My love for u is unconditional...

B'cos I will love u till the end of time. It will withstand any test, even the test of time. I will still be in love with u even when I am no longer a memory to u... I will see u in all ur beauty and majesty everyday even when I don’t cross ur mind for days or months. My love for u is unconditional...

Be'cos I will hold on to the dreams we built together even if there is no hope.
The Happiness life we hoped to share, the greatest place we hope to live... the best man I hoped u to be, Will always be the life I hope to have, even if u have gone far away... I don't think u will ever fully understand. How u've touched my life and made me who I am. I don't think u cud ever know just how truly special u are...

That even on the darkest nights you are my brightest star. I don't think u will ever fully comprehend, How u almost made my dreams come true and how u've opened my heart to love and the wonders it can do.... I don't think u cud ever feel all the love I have to give... And I'm sure u'll never realize u are my will to live...

I wish u had loved me unconditionally in the same way u asked me...



Best,
DA

Everlasting love....

As I sit here, think of how much u mean to me and I must be sure u know it. Each day I love u more and more My heart it over flow and I have to wonder to myself, Do I always let it show...

I know that I can be stubborn the truth I don’t always see... It hides away in the dark Waiting to be set free. Afraid to put my trust in u, Afraid that u will leave that u will take my heart again and throw it back at me...

But as much as I fear the love It grows inside me still Filling me with thoughts of u
Its the pain I want to kill. My heart aches for u Sweetheart, Its so full its bout to burst In my life u will always be the one that I put first. I’m sorry if I ever hurt u... My love does not always show but I can make this promise to u, My love for you continues to grow...

I swear to always be here for u and I know you’ll be here for me too, I can’t wait for that special day when we each say “I do”, We will live happily forever In a home overflowing with love and each night before I close my eyes...I will thank our God above... For giving me someone so special A love that’s always true If I ever lost you Sweetheart... I don’t know what I wud do

u are the reason I’m happy, the reason that I live and for ur happiness Darling, My life I wud gladly give. Please don’t forget that I love u and that I need u so much in my life and we will be together forever as great partner and as Amaizin soulmate...