[ Just writing that puts a smile on my face ]: 2014

Senin, 03 Maret 2014

Believe in love again

Here, I am thinking of how much my life has changed since last year. Reading back in my blog, I can really see that I’m not longer the same person as before. My trip to Bali a few months ago helped me on my journey to find myself, and to accept the past as part of me and a thing I can't change anymore. I can really feel I have changed inside... I grew up this year, accepted things from the past I thought I wud never be able to. The month I was travelling around Bali to meet a lot of interesting people that were able to help me reflect and change the way I saw certain things in my life.

I was finally able to open up my heart again and forgive. With that, I was able to love again... And when I least expected it, I found love. It sounds tacky, but I guess u need to be in peace with urself to be able to give ur heart away. In Bali, I was finally able to mend the broken pieces. It was hard in the beginning to accept the changes, but at one point I felt I was finally ready to trust someone again. I guess, I’m finally able to love a person again. It showed me that there is always hope and that as long as u don’t give up and keep dreaming, everything is possible. I had to travel to be able to reflect and find the real me, but it was worth it. People say I’ve changed now I’m back in Jakarta, but in fact it is the other way around the other, old me they knew before wasn’t real. I was just hiding from myself in the past, trying to make others believe I was happy with my life as it was. But I don’t longer feel the need to hide anymore. I guess I grew up during the last few months in a way some people won’t understand, since the change has been quite big. But people who really care about me will at one point. And that will be my goal for the next year to keep investing my energy into those I love and really care about me. And especially that one person that helped me believe in love again…

Minggu, 12 Januari 2014

I love you

If only I cud have come up with the right words to describe the depth of this beautiful feeling that I have for you, I wud have whispered them to u the first time we met. The best thing that I can do is to show u now... U are the best thing that ever happened to me. I never thought that someone like me cud get so lucky!... I love you more and more each day and that is the most wonderful feeling any man can ever hope to experience....

Love

Dre

My Affection Notes

Everyone has felt it at one time of their life, the loss of a love whether it be a family member friend or a relationship that parted ways leaving a broken heart behind to pick up the pieces and start over again. By writing, reading or sharing notes bout love can be a great way to start the healing process. Sometimes, after losing someone we care so much about, writing poems might be the only thing we can deem to muster.

Writing can be a great way for a person like me to have a voice to express my grief, anger, or sorrow over the lost love. Putting it into words regardless if any one reads it or not allows a person to release some of those emotions and begin to heal. i do not have to worry bout anyone knowing my secret desire to rekindle a lost love even if it was a relationship that had no future to begin with or if it was full of turmoil. In my notes bout lost love, adore of love, respect of love & proud being to love and to beloved.

my words are mine own to do with as i choose. However, if i've a hard time putting my thoughts & feelings down into words i can always seek ideas in how to express my self in it.Sharing poems about lost love can be healing as well as can possibly rekindle that lost love. With sharing poems to the love that was lost gives you the opportunity to express yourself and what that love meant to you. Often times in a relationship when love goes bad it is due to lack of communication.

Reading poems focused on lost love can be healing as well. It gives a person connection to others that are or have experienced the same emotions and pain. After reading poems having to do with lost love a person does not feel as alone as often is an emotion commonly felt after losing someone we love.

Although circumstances may not have been the same, the emotions that come with a lost love are. They are very similar to those experienced when you lose a loved one through death. In these poems, you can feel their anger, sadness, alone, frustrated and so many more emotions that are mixed it sometimes makes one wonder how and if they ever got passed the loss.

After reading other people’s poems regarding lost love i will begin to see that others too have really felt the exact same way, and in some even see their closure and how the moved forward. It will help me move forward and work through the pain. Not all notes in this mold end in emptiness, some can end incredible remarkable. That is what makes them so amazing.

Sharing my notes cud re-open that communication line and give me a second chance at keeping it open. However, even if the notes do not rekindle those lost loving feelings it can give me some closure. i will feel better knowing that i tried. Notes are remarkable in how they can touch on so many emotions and be so reflective of how one might feel.