im not a perfect...

Wednesday, April 7, 2010 at 11:30pm

I'm not a perfect person....Even though I like to think I am....I make mistakes too, don't u see? ..I know I am not the perfect man...I never even try as hard as I can, I have lived my life trying to do as I please....I often take wrong to ever higher degrees....I can only be me I'm sorry I'm not perfect like a Man u want me to be.. I'd give anything to make u happy....

I've made many mistakes in my life...And there are many things I do regret....So many things I wish to forget...I know I'm doing wrong this is why I pray...I ask God to guide me, each and every day!... I have loved and I have lost even though I tried... my heart broken to the point where I’ve cried....I caused pain to others I have known...I can understand why I’m often alone....

This is the reason why, That I can run and even fly, When I want to crawl Or feel that I will fall
I stand and live this life....I'm not a perfect person As many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know....

The mistakes I have made so far....Have forged the man from the very start...I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you...I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear...I'd never do anything to hurt you...I don't try to make you mad.
Sometimes you get angry And we start to fight Little... do you know I cry myself to sleep at night...Sometimes I don't know Just what I did wrong....I don't understand Why we don't get along Everytime we fight....

And so I'm not a perfect person. And though I never meant to hurt you, And I wish I could take it back, I can only learn and grow in this too...I don't want to show my emotions,
Or to tell you how I feel. I just want to know the difference, Between what is fake and what is real...

I am a nice person most who know me would say, I just never feel there is any one place for me to stay....I learn and live my life, One small step at a time, Sometimes they do not go forward, There are some that I must warn, Will go back the way I came. Steps that are carried on in shame...I'm just another lost soul, That is waiting to be found. I'm just another liability, That you don't want around.

But without those fallen steps, I would not be the man I am. And it can't be changed even if you fret, I will learn from it if I can....I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do And the reason is you ...

I wish you could feel my heartbreak, Sometimes I wonder How much more my heart can take
Sometimes I get so angry...I just don't know what to say I feel like a game, That everyone wants to play The only thing i need in this world Is someone who is true...The only thing i want in this world Is to be loved by you!

I'm not a perfect person....And that is what makes me a man....yes... they make me who I am.....


best,
DA