Promises Made

Yesterday's goals, dim memories...
Dark saddened eyes, blurring with tears...
Painful scars borne, Love's history...
Futures crumble when doubt appears...

No brightly lit hope envisioned...
When following after harsh words...
Hurt soul splits in twain, partitioned...
Swooned by appeal when numbness lured...

Apologies made, never bought...
Price paid turned out far too costly...
Though never known what would be wrought...
Must walk into the night softly...

One wish, only to be released...
Granted, now receive this token...
Words written in rhyme, love's deceased...
When promises made . . .

were broken.


DA

Touch urself and u touch me...

I understand the why Yet I cannot grasp the how... But if this is the way u must handle us, I will try to understand somehow. There is one thing that I ask
As u walk away, Please create a corner in ur heart for me... So at least, there, I can always stay.

U will always be my love, That will never change... Though we are going separate ways
That fact remains the same. I know we must let each other go Circumstances force us to set each other free... But today, I give back to u . . . ur words...
Touch urself and u Touch Me...


best
DA

3am
2nd floor
[D]Room

I'm sitting in the windowsill, ur picture taped to the glass... Feel ur arms around me but u're not here with me anymore... I wear this white shirt cause it has ur identic scent... It's the closest I will ever be to u again...

City sounds remind me of when we owned it all... We walked these streets and every spots captured u in my thought... Never in my life had I felt so close to heaven...
Never in my life have I felt so alone...

There's a burning inside me that won't go away... It won't let me sleep... It won't let me think of anything else but u... Let it rain to wash me clean...


D.A

my slow tears

I look up as a tear rolls slowly down my cheek, I think bout better days and wonder if I'll feel that way again u look at me with those eyes, I know so well always serious, so deep and insightful as though u're always in control but not today, not now...

Now u look so scared, like for once u don't have the answer..I gaze at u, looking deep into those black eyes... Hoping to understand, why u've said those things...
u did, I wonder for a moment if this is all a dream, if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved...

u look at me with a confusion I have never seen... slowly pull me towards u and wipe the tears from my cheek...


DA

To watch u leaving . . .

To watch u leaving . . . is to know such pain, it's jagged edges tearing into my soul. As a stake from the garden tears into the warm, dark earth...

To watch u leaving . . . knowing all the while that never again will I fit myself, warm with sleep, against ur solid back... Nor hear ur steady breathing Or feel the beating of ur heart.

To watch u leaving . . . aware in every moment of every day that my dreams, my future, once tied with silken ribbons to urs, will never come to be and the mornings once so silent and hopeful, us gazing at the mountains and so gently awaiting forever are now but small pieces of my past...

To watch u leaving . . . ur heart a tight fist of anger and ur dry eyes betraying nothing of u. I cry for both of us, my love, b'cos u will not.

To watch u leaving . . . is to know that I've lost my place on this earth. My station. My heart's home. That I will wander, forever a nomad. Alone and afraid. And in my troubled dreams watch u leave, again and again.

For the balance of my days...

DA

This is Destiny

I let the tears fall down. I've finally realized what we had is gone... It's not the way it's supposed to be, It's not the way it was... It's the way it is but it wasn't up to me... u chose a path different than my own for so long, the love I had for u was all I'd known...

I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say, I don't know what to think What I knew wasn't the real u...

Now I can cry... Without an answer to the question: Why?

It's not the way I want it to be, It's not the way I thought it'd be, It's not the way I handled things... The fault can't be left to me. The way it used to be only my dreams let me see...

I'll never forget times together, I'll never forget the way it was, I'll never forget what u did to me... Remember, it cud've been forever. There's a reason that we met but our destinies have been set...

I'll have fears, I'll have dreams, I'll have hope...without u here to wipe away my tears, I'll never forget u... Remember, I still love u...


love u
DA

All Alone

How can u hurt me back so... u act like it was nothing when u get up and go but it was really something to have left me all alone, I sit here and wonder how u can be so blind... my mind just ponders, Im just too kind while u have left me all alone...

u make up these excuses and pretend it is okay but I can’t take the abuse that u show my way, u have left me all alone... someday u will see all the pain Im feeling but this really hurts me, this is why Im fleeing b'cos u have left me all alone...

Now I will leave u in the dust when u see me walking off... u won’t be thinking about any lust all u can imagine sitting in ur loff while I leave u all alone...


Me
D.A

if u forget me...

Thursday at 10:50pm


I want u to know one thing, u know how this is.... Well, now....if little by little u stop loving me, I shall stop loving u little by little. If suddenly u forget me... do not look for me, for I shall already have forgotten u...

If u think it long and mad, the wind of banners that passes through my life and u decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots, remember that on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off to seek another land....

But if each day, each hour, u feel that u are destined for me with implacable sweetness, if each day a flower climbs up to ur lips to seek me my love... my own in me all that fire is repeated, in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten, my love feeds on ur love, beloved, and as long as u live it will be in ur arms
without leaving mine....

me
D.A

I remember how it used to be...

Thursday at 11:05pm...

I remember how it used to be... Where nothing else mattered but u and me... Dinners, walks, gifts, and Long term Talks... I miss u, I wish u cud see... How much I think about u and me... I remember when u said, I was ur everything... I remember when u mean's that too. Now, when u say it, it's more like a phrase. And ur sweet nothings, make me cry more over u...

Those days when u'd call just to say hi... Back when it was so hard just to say goodbye. Down my heart, there forms a crack. It was created a little while ago... B'cos of how much I want u back...

The old u, the one I thought I knew for all of these years, we went from being friends to being in love...
It seems to me, now, like We're none of the above.... I want to let go...but then I can't... I know I sud...If only I cud. I have tried and tried. The endless solution, I cried and cried... im not care if a man like me cry..

Tears of pain and tears of hope... It was these times I need u just to cope. u turn around and hurt me bad, u spin my heart, and make me sad... i remember ur actions don't stop playing my mind, my heart, my soul and yet I forgive u everytime...I wish I cud say that u are only mine...

Don't u miss me, don't u care? I know they are there... u remind me everyday that other mans are hot. I know, I see, I'm sorry I'm not.

Your friends baby why do you follow? They are ignorant, rude, and immature. A year gone by I thought being with me could be the cure...

u go away and there i am... Pretending like I was never there, just b'cos I went somewhere far. Far away, and u kill the heart...It's all my fault, but u tore me apart. We were supposed to start new and be okay...To hard, I guess, b'cos u ruined it in under one day!...

Isn't the love that I have to give enough to help us through? Why can't it be enough... I'm so in love with u? I guess as time goes on and it continues... What was once ur everything, is all u have to loose.

I remember how it used to be... Where nothing else mattered but u and me...

Those times, When time simply stood still... and we kissed, that perfect kiss . Why did he take it away from me? It's b'cos that is how reality is.....


missed u,
DA

Forgive not....

Thursday at 11:16pm

I've made my mistakes, caused my troubles... why I have done these things, I haven't a clue, yet I know I pay... I have driven hatred into this world to which u offered peace and safety, Yet I wanted chaos and confusion for only a moments time weary and hastily... I got these things with a whirl wind of consequences I did not mean for things to end this way for them to be in such an up roar...

My heart pleads with u do not forgive me but understand I am lost In a world I myself created to weald my fantasies reality... Though I know they are not. I have trapped myself within them, Forgive me not for the heartache... Forgive me not for the troubles I've caused but know I apologize....

im very sorry...
DA

I'm So Sorry......

Thursday at 11:30pm

I'm So Sorry...

I'm sorry for the times u cried and the loneliness u felt inside...

I'm sorry for the way things were and the selfishness that u endured...

I'm sorry for the nights we lost and the deep pain it must have cost...

I'm sorry for the love u missed, losing u helped me realize this...

I'm sorry I wasn't the man u deserved, this has been the hardest lesson learned...

I'm sorry I wasn't there to show... the deepest love u'll ever know...

I'm sorry for the empty days and the stresses that u still yet pay...

I'm sorry for the way I left, I've never felt so much regret...

I'm sorry for the heart I broke, that shattered with the words I spoke...

I'm sorry for the empty space, that laid beside u in my place...

I'm sorry for the empty arms, u fell into when times were hard...

I'm sorry for the days that passed, Our love now will surely last...

I'm sorry it took so long to vow to love u forever here and now...


I'm So Sorry...
DA

There are many wishes from me to u.....

Today at 12:56am
I'm sitting here, Trying to find the right words, to write but, between being too tired, and over-thinking tonight... The words just aren't flowing, as much as I'd like. I've tried to find the perfect line just for u... Try as I might but none of the words I want to use, just seem right... All I wanted to do is write the perfect line for some reason, I have know idea where this is goin'....

laugh all day, cry all night, always saying nothings wrong... everythings alright, never wanting to admit
how u really feel inside, b'cos all i really want to do is run away and hide...i wish, just wish that... maybe, just maybe i cud lose myself in a world that wasn’t my own, a world where only u and I exist... night and day wud become one in the same, every problem in the world wud melt away...

All i can do is wishing.... There are many wishes from me to u....

I wish I knew what u were thinking... I wish I cud read ur mind... I wish that we were together now...
I wish I cud call u mine... I wish I cud make u understand... I wish I cud make u see... I wish that I cud be with u now... I wish I cud lay my head on your chest... I wish that u were here with me...

I wish I cud tell u how I feel... I wish I cud tell u I love u... I wish u wud look me back in the eyes... I wish u wud say "I love u, too"... I wish I didnt have to only dream of u... I wish I cud be with u all the time... I wish I cud stay in ur arms forever... I wish I cud say all the things on my mind...

I wish I cud hold u, as u fall asleep and be the one to kiss u good night... I wish that I cud look into ur eyes, and see ur smile shining bright... I wish that u were mine to hug, and to whisper in ur ear... I wish that I culd look u in the face and say ‘I love u’ and know those words u hear... I wish that I cud be with u and that I cud be ur true love, u're my dear sweet angel, for it’s like u come from up above, u're heart is so caring, ur soul is forever true, u make me blush uncontrollably and it’s b'cos I love u...

I wish I had opened up to u, told u about the little things bothering me... I wish u wud listen to me as I spoke with insecurity, say a magical word... I wish I cud take u as a friend again... I wish u wud understand- that little comfort made all the difference...

I wish I had spent more time listening to u excitedly go about the soccer results... I wish I had gone on more drives or fishing with u... I wish I cud learn as much as possible those minute things u were eager to give me as a gift... I wish we talked about our interests... I wish we valued each moment we had together...

I wish I had known earlier what u meant to me friend... I wish I was grateful for that smile shining through my cloudy day... I wish I hadn't forgotten to thank u for accompanying me when I was scared to walk alone... I wish I had multiplied ur goodness and not the mistakes... I wish u said the exact words at the desired moments...

I wish u knew the depths of my heart... I wish I had forgiven urs for my mistakes... I wish I had told u how much I loved u... I wish I culd make it up to every soul I met... I wish I cud amend those mistakes I made mostly unknowingly... I wish I encouraged a person to go on... I wish I spoke a sweet word ever so often and made someone's day...

I wish u had time to hear im cry... I wish i had time to hear u laugh... I wish u had time to watch what im goin' to do in my room to see me become ur own person... I wish i had time to comfort u when u were sad And time to share ur joy, When u were happy... I wish i had time to show u what i can do in this life ... I wish i had time to protect u...

I wish I spared another smile at u... I wish I spent more time with u and my family... I wish I realized the meaning of Relationship... I wish I removed that stone or every hurdle on other's way... I wish I listened to the birds singing and admired the waves splashing... I wish I remembered to thank God more often... I wish I cud turn back time...

When life ends, so do our dreams, feelings and existence. Prevent urself from wishing the wrong thing at the wrong time. Live in the present and wish for the best now... u will be in my thought forever...
I wish i had a lifetime...!

I wish to show u... How much I love u....

u are my soul and i am ur mate.. we are soulmate !

If u cud read my mind there, u wud find the two of us intertwined... the image of u I've memorized
I remember enough to all our fantasize... I close my eyes and there u are in my mind, so u''re never far.
I caress ur lips, ur face, ur hair even ur feet... and hold ur body close, so I can feel u there. Our hands all over one another roaming in places meant only for lovers. My heart, it yearns for u... My soul, it reaches out for u, In my every waking thought I know u too have not forgot the love we made the passion, the bliss....

I cud never forget the way u kissed me and though the ocean separates us, I know again, I always feel ur sweet touch...I feel as if we have loved before In some other time and some other place... We share a connection deeper than most I know ur feelings, the fears u face...

did u notice..? u are the reason I wake up in the morning, u are the reason I am still alive today u mean the world to me... u are more then just a boyfriend... u are my soul and im ur mate... u are my very best friend...u are a great partner, u are my big brother... u are an amaizin lover... fulfilling with happiness as forever has no end...

u are the one I want to spend the rest of my life with... u are there when I need u when I am sad, u are there to wipe my tears away when I am upset, u tell me everything is going to be ok... u hold the key to my heart no one else has that key, my life has been so much better with u in it... u don't have to buy me stuff to make me happy all u have to do is just bring urself... Maybe we have loved many times in the past for eternity our hearts will always meet the love we share is too strong to end u make me complete...

My soul mate for a life time will always be u with the love so treasured purely real and true, We shall never feel alone with the bond we share as this is living proof of a perfectly true pair In all honesty a dedicated love that few ever find the image of u locked in my heart and mind....With my every breath, I long for ur touch... I love u more with each passing day with all my heart, I need u so much...

u were sent to me from up above to stay with me, forever in love. Within my heart I know it's true 'cos u are my soul and im ur mate...we are soulmate...!!!


ur beloved mate,
D.A

u are my notes....

Today at 1:00am


i am completely devoted to u...

i love ur tender and loving touch...

i long to hold u close and never let u go...

i cherish u...

u make me feel loved and appreciated...

in u, i have found the greatest joy in my life...

i love to snuggle and cuddle with u...

u inspire me...

i love to gaze into ur beautiful eyes...

i adore u so much...

i love the way ur eyes catched my mind...

dream of a man that loves u, cherishes u and adores u...

i long to hold u again in my arms...

u are my precious gift i ever had in my life...

i think u are Amaizin...

what i long for u is forever with u...

ur love has made me...

wealthy beyond my dreams...

when im with u, i never want u to leave me...

that why i putted u in my notes....



beloved,
D.A

Open ur eyes and ur heart

Dear you....

though we're far Apart... i know exactly where u are, every second... every moment...
Right here in my heart... open ur eyes...open ur heart, u have too see.. and u have to feel... how much i love u and what u really mean to me...

i still love u but u dont know... i love u but im affraid to show, i need u here with me... i promise...

i will never hate u and that will never be but why cant i ust say that i love u that way... i never felt this way before in my life and sometimes it really hurts like a knife cos i dont have the courage to tell u how i feel to tell u that my feelings for u are real to tell u that i want u so badly and tell u that if i could be with u...

i'd be so glad... i hope u notice one day how i feel and that u will see hoe i feel is so real... i hope u will love me someday. the way that i love u and i promiswe i will always love u, i will really do...

so if u'd just take the first step, u really wont regret it and i will love u everyday a little more... i hope this lines can make u see what u really mean to me...

what im trying to say... is that i've never loved some one this way!


me
DA

To the one i still love

Dear you...

all my days were lonely, and all my nights empty... all i did was crying over my past, and all i saw was darkened days... i was going on my way, without even knowing which way...I miss u so much, I want u here again.. please understand I need u dear
don't leave me here all alone...

But still I lay here in a daze thinking of u in so many ways, then i remember ur silly smile, ur lovely face and ur beautiful eyes... i though, i missed u my dear... I will never forget the first day we met...

i still remember, the days we have spent together... Those days were memorable when we used to talk on phone for hours, Those days were beautiful when we used to meet and look into each others eyes,hand in hand, with u beside me... showing how much u care with ur loving smiles and ur loving touch. u made me feel the happiest one of all...

thanks for the love u gave me... u'll never fully recognize how much love I have for u...I can't eat or sleep, The feelings so intense... Being so close to u... I want to be with u anymore and more...

even though we're not in the same track... im on my way and u were also going on ur way... where ever u are, i hope u will fine what best for u with all my heart, i wished to be a part of u again...I couldn't help past memories that would only make me cry I had to forget my first love and give love another try... wishing I could've shown u how I feel show u that what we had was real for that one moment I would cherish forever, I wish that now we were together again...

So I've fallen in love with u and I'll never let u go, I still love u more than anyone. I just had to let u know and if u ever wonder why... I still don't know what I'll say but I'll never stop loving u each and every day... My feelings for you will never change Just know my feelings are true...

u are in my every wish and in whatever I pray for...ur name is etched on the gateway of my heart... I still have a love for u sweet heart...But how much ever u are far away from me, my heart is always with u and urs with mine And I still believe that one day our love will shine, I'm living on hope that one day u would be mine and only mine...Just remember one thing I Love u...

DA

To the man in my life...

I love u so much, it will last forever Everyday my love for u always grows, u get nearer and nearer to the centre of my heart, where no one has ever been You open me up, so my love can be seen...

One day soon I hope u will see How much you really do mean to me. I love u so deeply and passionately so One day soon I hope u will know...

Love like this only comes once in a lifetime And my love for u is so strong, I hope u'll be mine Forever and a day, forever and always I am in love with u now and for eternity, always...

U make me feel happy when u are around, My head starts to spin and my feet leave the ground I float on the clouds and fly like a dove Just because I feel surrounded by that little word 'love'...

From the moment I saw u, I knew it was true... The pounding of my heart told me what I already knew, that u were someone special, I could feel it in my heart, From the moment I met u, I didn't want us to part...

So, u gorgeous man, the love of my life I have laid down my heart in the hope u will see How much u really, really do mean to me for now, for always, and for all eternity....


love,
DA

if oneday i shall die....

Today at 4:26pm

This is a letter for a dear of mine:

In this letter what u'll find, found only in my mind and in its words they will behold words of truth and words so gold.. once it's read it can't be part my words will echo in ur deepest heart.... If ever i shall leave this place.. u won't forget me as ur a precious Best friend, a lil' Brother, an Amaizin Lover and a great Partner... u may not have ever seen me but u know that I am there, u can feel me in ur heart As u enter each new day...

If one day that i shall die and i wait for u while in the sky, if i ever need to cry.. u'll help me find the reason why...If tomorrow starts without me and I'm not there to see... if the sun should rise and find ur eyes all filled with tears for me.. I wish so much u wouldn't cry the way u did today, while thinking of the many things, we didn't get to say. I know how much u love me,as much as I love u, and each time that u think of me, I know u'll miss me too...

If ever i am in great despair.. don't forget, u'll still be here... i have been so faithful, so trusting and so true, though there were times i did somethings, i knew i shouldn't do... u already have been forgiven me..

I will always be there for u... I am ur truly and precious Best friend, a lil' Brother, an Amaizin Lover and a great Partner...

If love is down and hate is high, u'll make me smile... If ever i wud get in strife, u'd sacrifice my very life... and If i sud lose my angel wings.. u'll help me fly and drop ur things...

If i wud find it hard to stand, u're always here to hold my hand.... If i wud die, u'd sit and wait for me upon the golden gate, don't forget my words so true... u'll always be right here for me....for every time u think of me, I'm right here, in your heart..

once again u will be here with me now and forever and always please remember... I am ur truly and precious Best friend, a lil' Brother, an Amaizin Lover and a great Partner...


Ur Bestfriend, a Sweet Brother, an Amaizin Lover, my Whole Soulmate and a great Partner...
DA




Best,
DA

Loyalty, Trust & Love...

Loyalty, Trust and Love....

We say that love demands a lot from you, But reality suggests it is not at all true.. Two very simple things in love are a must, One is devoted loyalty and a faithful trust.. Trust in ur love make sure it is deep, The returns u get is for u to keep.. The stronger the bond its harder to break, has to be so when there's so much at stake..

When in a relation, its trust that u need, True belief in ur love demands ur heed..
Once broken to pieces is hardly rebuilt, At times u have to live with the guilt.. Here loyalty too plays an important role, Offers a soothing cohort to a longing soul.. Staying with ur love in joy and sorrow, Smiles u give and the tears u borrow..

In a relation, loyalty brings u close, The faith u show, when beside u pose.. Just one false step of treacherous mind, Cracks apart relations of every kind.. Sometimes these emotions are put to test, Puts two hearts in a conflicting unrest.. One reason all problems are easy to shun, Is trusting the loyalty of your loved one..

A relation in itself is a bond so strong, Together u face all the right and wrong..
These factors decide how long it stands, Here loyalty and trust walk hand in hands..

u are still the voice inside my heart...

Thursday at 9:42pm | Edit Note | Delete

Hey,

what's up? I was thinking bout u today, but u didn't stop by, or call, or e-mail me... I was thinking bout u today, but u probably don't care and it made me want to cry b'cos I know I can't have u..ever..
This is kind of hard for me to say, but i must do what I think is best...for my peace of mind but mostly for my heart. I still like u alot and u know that...I close my eyes and i think of u theres nothing more that i can do...i see ur face i see ur smile, i keep on asking myself why...

If I cud say "I love u" again.... I sud say it many times for u but, I don't want u to know cos something bothered in my heart the feeling of fear & shyness that controls my heart to share my feelings that hiding inside my heart...now u're gone who knows where and im left standing here...

I love u and I hate u.... I hate that we don't work together. I hate that in the end we only break each other. Love isn't supposed to hurt, but this did. I think bout u constantly and the times when it was almost right. But there is still just so much wrong. Maybe it's not our time, maybe we're simply too much alike to make this work...

I want u to know u saved me...In so many ways, u made me believe that I am someone amazing and that I will eventually get all this right. And I want u to know that no matter what happens u'll be there when I do get it right....ur the voice inside my heart, u will always be so deep inside my heart...I don't know when I will see u again but ur with me....ur forever be....

when i remember everything we've done all i can do is smile....i know u think of me cos i think of u always....im not afraid to tell u i still love u, im just not good at relationships.... i know i will regret this but i still have a love for u...I will always hold u inside my heart I'll be waiting...Whenever we're apart
I think of u and listen to the voice inside my heart still stay with me, whisper in my ear... u and I will always be together Forever...

i pray to God to open ur heart to see the secret feeling that hiding inside my heart...I wish..u were here right now..b'cos I need u more then ever...

I love u..
DA

A Letter to my deepest Heart

A letter to my deepest Heart.....

Thursday at 10:03pm

Dear Heart...


We’ve been through a lot, u and I. Almost 31 years of choices, experiences, wisdom, failure, and dreams...u’ve been beating every day, every second, and carrying my wishes throughout every beat. u’ve been strong, u’ve let me down, and u have hurt.... I’ve hurt u. I know I have... u’ve hurt me too. Neither of us is blameless...

I thought I knew everything about u the first time I fell in love. It was hard, this love thing. Hard work indeed. The fragility of human life resulted in ur first break, the promises that I made within u are not ever going to be fulfilled. You split that day. A part of u died and will always be gone, but that doesn’t make u any less. It just makes u real...

u showed me someone else though, heart. u gave me love in a way that I never expected to love in with complete abandonment. With joyful noise and implicit faith, I love with everything...

This past week, my heart, u and I realized something new. We learned that u can break still, that you can fall apart and I can fall apart with u. We learned that sometimes there is no room for pride, not when u understand the consequences of what cud happen, not when u see what there is to lose. We learned that there are measures u’re willing to go through for love, and that there are measures we’re both willing to go through in order to save what is so precious to us both. That when silly, light-headed romantic love fades what lies beneath is something infinitely more strong, more wonderful, and more real than u ever whispered to me in the dark when we were young...

This past week, my heart, we went out on a limb and we dropped all pretense and together we made it work. It was hard exercise but we are better for it. We’re both bruised. We’re all bruised. But life is decidedly different now, now that we have seen what could happen, now that we have seen what cud be. We’d both started taking things for granted. We’d both started to think that the two of us were invincible, when the truth is, we’re not. We’re strong, we can get through anything, but it doesn’t mean we don’t come through the other side that much more diminished, that much more raw...

Thank u, heart, for being something that guides me and is there for me, a constant companion through the pain and the joy, through the mistakes and successes.... Everything is beautiful and new when I have you in it...


Love,
DA

if u only knew....

Today at 1:37am

hello....

The moon is shining high and the stars are burning bright and I'm staring at them wondering what u're doing tonight out there...i dont know, why I need u desperately. I only feel complete when we're together...i think this is silly... but this is the feeling i have inside...

If only u knew, how my heart overflows with love for u. If only u could see the way u fill my hopes and dreams. u're the owner of my heart, the ruler supreme even in the dark of night, I've only to think bout u to feel ur loving light and from this world I drift feeling as if I'll never touch the ground again... If only u knew...

I'm sorry for what I said for the angry words we exchanged. I never meant to hurt u or make you feel estranged...

If only u cud guess how I hear ur voice when others speak for u hold the key to my happiness, and it's always u my soul seeks... If only u cud feel, how ur very presence has the power to heal, all the wounds inside me. u've made me abandon the pain of yesterday, and u've shown me that the past can no longer stand in the way of what I hope to achieve...If only u knew.

If only u cud realize the way u've shown me that it's better to give than to take, and whatever I do, I do for ur sake. I'm willing to give u my all and expect nothing in return but, oh how I yearn for u...if only u knew...

Right now there's so much pain weighing in my heart that I don't know how to begin or where I sud start... And though all I'm feeling is so difficult to express, I believe we can make it, put this grief behind us...I only know that my love for u remains strong, and I want to be with u..my whole life long.

for u to know... u're with me always.. My mind finds u again and again and always returns to ur picture. I hold ur image dear. Each night, I lay awake for long hours, replaying every word u said...I wish I cud go to u, wish I cud hold u and touch ur beautiful soul the way that u've touched mine...I will say that I'll always be here to love and protect u and I'll always strive to make each day better than the day before. All that I am is urs...I pray that u've given me ur heart, not just a little bit... but all the way.

all i can say Thank u for turning an ordinary life into a fairy tale...for turning faint hope into a dream come true....Thank u for giving me a sample of the bliss that awaits in heaven and for turning a smile
into a sanctuary where I can always take comfort...Thank u for being more than a amaizin' lover...for being my very best friend...for being my superb brother...for being great partner...So please tell me how I can ease ur pain and mend ur broken heart so that we can try again....

If u care to answer, I'll be right here, patiently waiting with a heart that holds u dear...


peace
DA

i just love u......

It is very important for me to express to u how much u really mean to me. I wish I cud do this in person while holding u in my arms and gazing into ur eyes. But since we are physically separated by miles of emptiness, this expression must come in the form of letters such as this...

I just love u b'cos I do....I can't change it. Its not my choice, I wish I didn't, but that's how love is. I can't say a word bout u. I've to forget bout u. I wish u didn't make it so difficult for both. There are things I wish I could tell u. There are many things I need tell u, but I can't find the way. I can't find u anymoreur way of looking life is different from mine. I can't change it. Its not my choice. I wish I didn't love u.

I can't forget bout u. I just wish it cud all work out like it once happened.... There was a time where I didn't beleive in love.I really thought it never existed, but this is the time that makes me want to thank u. Thank u everything, b'cos it is u that taught me love, and how to love. Before, I feared love. But now, I know I can't go on without love. Not any love, but ur love, my love, my only, my one. I know u might fear my love. Here I am telling u to not fear it, but have it.

Out of all the things money can buy and life can give, my love to u can not and will never match. B'cos it is u who I live for and will die for. It is u who has my heart, body, and soul. My eyes open to see u and close to picture u...u run wild in my mind, u stay still in my heart. My soul u share and my body u hold. Forgive me if I stop writing, but I must, for I fear words written on a paper can not describe what I honestly feel for the obssesion of my love, for u my love...

Love u for the years to come, loved u for the years that have passed, and my love u will have always. I love every little thing bout u, ur sexy smile, the sound of ur voice, the magic in ur eyes. I love ur gentle touch and the warmth I feel at ur side . I love dreaming bout u. I love discovering u and letting go with u. I love each and every once-in-a-lifetime moment I share with u. Today, tomorrow, forever...

I promise to always love u and always hold u in my heart. I will always be here for u when u need me, and I will love u no matter what life brings us. u are my soul mate and I swear to love u all eternity...

Yours...

My Broken Soul.....

Saturday, June 12, 2010 at 12:29am

MY BROKEN SOUL....

I will never forget the days we once had...The days when u were everything to me..
My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever But now I realize that was all a big dream..
The feelings I have for u will never go, I wish I cud take back that one regretful day...
The day when I willingly let u slide from my arms, Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets..

That I wud once have to live through, The sight of u in someone else's arms...
Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces, I sometimes wonder if u still think of me Or if to u..
I'm just a face in the crowd...I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back...

But for now, I'll sit here silently...Remembering all the memories we once shared...
Everyday my love grows much stronger, Hoping that one day u will feel the same...
And put back the pieces of my broken Soul....


Best,
DA

i give u my Heart, my Body, my Mind and my Soul

Sunday, June 27, 2010 at 2:30pm

I've known u for so long now, my feelings keep getting stronger. I give you each breath and the tears i cry... The way you make me feel..I can hide no longer. Our eyes connect across the room, my heart skips a beat, my attraction to you is taking hold my mind and body weak.. I give you my world all the pain and strike....Heavens angels brought me to knock upon your door, to give you all my love, to keep you wanting more...I give you this kiss and there words i say...."I'll Cherish you always as of this day"
I give you my faith that these words are tru from now until the end i promise 2 you..

The special bond we share, will guide us on our way to a perfect life were dreams come true...I give you this promise, the promise to try..

You are the object of my desire, The man of all my dreams... I give you my past, my future and NOW. I feel, I could explode with passion, my soul breaking at the seams. The fire of temptation burns deep within my soul. A feeling and a yearning, I find hard to control...Nothing can describe, the way I feel for you... I give you my voice and the music i sing. Your love is warm and precious, Your heart so pure and true...

What more can I really say... We were brought together, never will we part, Your my special gift, Your my shining star... I'll love you unconditionally with all my heart, mind and soul..I give you my thoughts and my hopes in this Vow. I'll never break your spirit, I give you my love, for you to make me whole.... I'll always keep you whole Excitement and heavenly pleasures, I feel when in your arms...I can't help but be seduced by your ways, your presence, your charms...I give you my hand and learn to share life..and...


I give you my heart,mind,body, and soul....


Love,
DA

Letting u go.....

Saturday, March 13, 2010 at 12:41am


i am letting u go, and this time it's for good...I tried to make u stay many times, I did everything I cud...Lies were all u heard from me, the truth was always left unsaid...With every single tear fallen, a lie had been fed...

The feelings have flown away, and I'll stand here and let them fly..,I can not keep chasing them, it's time for u to say good bye....

I can't stay here and let u take me for granted anymore...u thought I'd always be here, but I'm walking right out the door. I am done with crying, that never got me anywhere And I am done pretending that u still care...

u always had me figured out, always cud see right through, Those days are gone, i don't know u like u used to...Every night I lay in bed with visions of you in my head, I think of the dreams that cud come true, if only I were next to u...Oh how I wish we werent apart, although I know ur in my heart, I want to be in u arms, for u to hold me forever and keep me from harm. To me u are my dream come true, I will always love and care for u...

But, My memories of u... I'll never exchange...

u know i'm regret all the pain i put u through...i just wait until the day comes when someone does it to me...Now all I ask is for a sign if maybe one day again u'll be mine, b'cos in my heart, always in u I'll see...my lost love with whom I was meant to be.......

I guess I just wrote this To let u know...I loved u so much And now I've let u go..

will love u till I take my last breath and the very last words i shall say I love u...please forgive me...



love,
DA

Trully love u........

Dear kamu,

I just want to thank u for all the support, love, intimacy, hormony, honestly and care. Though u've been through a lot of pain and sacrifices in loving me, it doesn't matter for u... I love u very much and I really mean it. I know it's difficult for u to decide, but whatever the outcome of our relationship is, I just want u to know that I've never regretted any moment of our relationship and I'll cherished the good and bad memories of what we had together....

I just want to say sorry if I hurt ur feelings ... I just want u to know that I'm thankful that u came into my life and I will love u for the rest of my life.

Thanks for everything and take care always!

Love always,
DA

u left me because......

Monday, March 29, 2010 at 1:45 pm

The fights we had were the worst. I loved (still love) u so much. Seeing u angry at me, knowing that it was me who caused it. It seemed that at times when u needed me to be there for u, I wud fuck up most....I’m angry at myself for failing to change. I knew u needed me to, I knew if I cud it would make things better. I don’t know why I didn’t. I do know that if I had a chance now that I wud do anything to make it better. No sacrifice wud be too much. If I cud just feel u in my arms again... u make me want to be a better man... Through all the bad things we faced we certainly did have some wonderful times though. We made the best of every moment. The drive across cities, getting thrown out of best escape to have the best night in a romantic hotel room. In every bad situation there was always a shimmer of light just being with u... When we broke up, I said it was because I saw what I was doing to you. The pain I was causing you and I wanted it to stop, because I loved you enough to do that. I can see now that I love u enough to do anything to stop that pain. Instead of letting u go I wish I cud have stopped doing what I was doing so we cud be together. Find the peace and serenity in our relationship. u holding me, is all I wud need. I wud be completely and totally honest with u. The only reason I withheld anything from my past is because I feared that u wudn’t love me. I failed to realize that not being honest kept u from loving me fully... u left me, because I was not worth ur soul, because love sud not devour dreams, because our love sud protect us both. u let it protect me when u told me it was over. u lied when u told me.. u didn’t love me... u left me because u loved me more than u loved urself, because u cherished my dreams with the same violent ferocity u cherished ur own...u left because there was no right answer to the question of which of us had to break to fit. ..u left because no matter who gave, the jagged edges left behind wud shared the other... u left because love is absolute even when the sacrifices it demands are brutal... u left because it was the one thing i couldn’t do... u left me because u reminded me.... u were a tiger, and tigers are strong enough to do anything... u said that if it was truly about me loving u... I wud never be able to say those things to u. Well, it was LOVING u...feeling like u chose to leave me after I poured my heart out for u, begging u to come back to me... That I said those things. Now all I hope to do is let u know that I really did love u, I still love u, and will always love u. Even if it means we can never be together... Love, as always. DA

do u hear me when im crying....

Sunday, June 13, 2010 at 5:49pm

I feel intimidated sometimes by this feeling, But as I said "This is how I feel " The pain in me is very real and I lose control, my thought go wild... The nights have been so cold and lonely...Yesterday I cried a silent tear for fear of losing u, Sometimes when I'm alone I Cry...I Cry because my heart is torn and I find it difficult to carry on...The tears I cry are bitter and warm..I don’t condemn myself for weakness, I don’t feel ashamed or guilty if im crying...I let myself cry...Every tear is dear to me, Because it speaks about the pain I am feeling...I let myself to experience the pain...

Today I cried a silent tear because u left my heart behind...God save me from this misery..the sleepless nights the pain of my broken heart of my lost soul, I dont know what to do anymore... God must be wondering what is going on with me, Man like me was not made to always be strong... I'm sad and depressed...I'm weak... I'm bad...

My love was real...I wud never ever to hurt u anymore.. I wud never have made u cry the way u made me cry.. I wud never have made u cry as many times u made me... I cry almost every night now...I wish I had saved all those tears that u made me cry..so I can drown u in them..Tears fall down my face, they keep flowing one by one, the pain begins to show, please tell me what i've done...the sad and angry part of me, wants to just let go, i want to be completely free, of all this pain...

I wish so many things and my biggest wish is u...I wish all these things...The only wish I want to come true is u.. It's very dissapointing me...I know I can't have u anymore..But I wish I had u...I have had u in the past..u said to me that u will be there on that day but when that day came then u were not there for me So much love showered and so many promises were made
but nothing worked on my way because u had gone...My love, I am crying for u because my love turned blue..I Am Crying...I feel hurt, so hurt at the moment..

I'm crying myself to sleep tonight, because I can't stop thinking of u...when im Looking at ur photos and wish u were here with me, Crying for ur endless love which become the end of story...I will not see u again but ur memories will stay forever...ur love has a hold on me is magically beyond imagination that brings me the most precious gift of love, I always think of u day and night and can not be forgotten ur sight that gives me pride When my soul rapture as u embrace me... I love u so much...I'm sorry for those tears I cried, I can't help but wonder why..

The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.Then to stop and see what makes one cry, so painful,and sad....And sometimes...I Cry and no one cares about why...For a man like me do cry when i can see my loss of immorality...And tears will come in endless streams..When mindless fate destroys my dreams...

I am crying, yes I am crying...Like a little boy cries. Since the search is of hope...Hope is something, which is nowhere to be found...i hate to cry...but i did it for u...now my heart fighting against a raw pain for the lost of my love... One day I cud make u Happy ! u are always in my heart and soul...

Do u hear me when I’m crying...?


Love,
DA

do u hear me when im crying....

Sunday, June 13, 2010 at 5:49pm

I feel intimidated sometimes by this feeling, But as I said "This is how I feel " The pain in me is very real and I lose control, my thought go wild... The nights have been so cold and lonely...Yesterday I cried a silent tear for fear of losing u, Sometimes when I'm alone I Cry...I Cry because my heart is torn and I find it difficult to carry on...The tears I cry are bitter and warm..I don’t condemn myself for weakness, I don’t feel ashamed or guilty if im crying...I let myself cry...Every tear is dear to me, Because it speaks about the pain I am feeling...I let myself to experience the pain... Today I cried a silent tear because u left my heart behind...God save me from this misery..the sleepless nights the pain of my broken heart of my lost soul, I dont know what to do anymore... God must be wondering what is going on with me, Man like me was not made to always be strong... I'm sad and depressed...I'm weak... I'm bad... My love was real...I wud never ever to hurt u anymore.. I wud never have made u cry the way u made me cry.. I wud never have made u cry as many times u made me... I cry almost every night now...I wish I had saved all those tears that u made me cry..so I can drown u in them..Tears fall down my face, they keep flowing one by one, the pain begins to show, please tell me what i've done...the sad and angry part of me, wants to just let go, i want to be completely free, of all this pain... I wish so many things and my biggest wish is u...I wish all these things...The only wish I want to come true is u.. It's very dissapointing me...I know I can't have u anymore..But I wish I had u...I have had u in the past..u said to me that u will be there on that day but when that day came then u were not there for me So much love showered and so many promises were made but nothing worked on my way because u had gone...My love, I am crying for u because my love turned blue..I Am Crying...I feel hurt, so hurt at the moment.. I'm crying myself to sleep tonight, because I can't stop thinking of u...when im Looking at ur photos and wish u were here with me, Crying for ur endless love which become the end of story...I will not see u again but ur memories will stay forever...ur love has a hold on me is magically beyond imagination that brings me the most precious gift of love, I always think of u day and night and can not be forgotten ur sight that gives me pride When my soul rapture as u embrace me... I love u so much...I'm sorry for those tears I cried, I can't help but wonder why.. The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.Then to stop and see what makes one cry, so painful,and sad....And sometimes...I Cry and no one cares about why...For a man like me do cry when i can see my loss of immorality...And tears will come in endless streams..When mindless fate destroys my dreams... I am crying, yes I am crying...Like a little boy cries. Since the search is of hope...Hope is something, which is nowhere to be found...i hate to cry...but i did it for u...now my heart fighting against a raw pain for the lost of my love... One day I cud make u Happy ! u are always in my heart and soul... Do u hear me when I’m crying...? Love, DA

im not a perfect...

Wednesday, April 7, 2010 at 11:30pm

I'm not a perfect person....Even though I like to think I am....I make mistakes too, don't u see? ..I know I am not the perfect man...I never even try as hard as I can, I have lived my life trying to do as I please....I often take wrong to ever higher degrees....I can only be me I'm sorry I'm not perfect like a Man u want me to be.. I'd give anything to make u happy....

I've made many mistakes in my life...And there are many things I do regret....So many things I wish to forget...I know I'm doing wrong this is why I pray...I ask God to guide me, each and every day!... I have loved and I have lost even though I tried... my heart broken to the point where I’ve cried....I caused pain to others I have known...I can understand why I’m often alone....

This is the reason why, That I can run and even fly, When I want to crawl Or feel that I will fall
I stand and live this life....I'm not a perfect person As many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know....

The mistakes I have made so far....Have forged the man from the very start...I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you...I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear...I'd never do anything to hurt you...I don't try to make you mad.
Sometimes you get angry And we start to fight Little... do you know I cry myself to sleep at night...Sometimes I don't know Just what I did wrong....I don't understand Why we don't get along Everytime we fight....

And so I'm not a perfect person. And though I never meant to hurt you, And I wish I could take it back, I can only learn and grow in this too...I don't want to show my emotions,
Or to tell you how I feel. I just want to know the difference, Between what is fake and what is real...

I am a nice person most who know me would say, I just never feel there is any one place for me to stay....I learn and live my life, One small step at a time, Sometimes they do not go forward, There are some that I must warn, Will go back the way I came. Steps that are carried on in shame...I'm just another lost soul, That is waiting to be found. I'm just another liability, That you don't want around.

But without those fallen steps, I would not be the man I am. And it can't be changed even if you fret, I will learn from it if I can....I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do And the reason is you ...

I wish you could feel my heartbreak, Sometimes I wonder How much more my heart can take
Sometimes I get so angry...I just don't know what to say I feel like a game, That everyone wants to play The only thing i need in this world Is someone who is true...The only thing i want in this world Is to be loved by you!

I'm not a perfect person....And that is what makes me a man....yes... they make me who I am.....


best,
DA

What A Hug can do......

Tuesday, June 29, 2010 at 1:36am

Hug...While hugging may not be as erotic or arousing, it's can be a very comforting and romantic form of affection. i can cuddle together on the couch, give my partner a bear hug, wrap ur arms around each when i am cold, or embrace before a kiss. Remember that i can't wrap love in a box, but i can always wrap a person in a hug...

There's something in a simple hug, That always warms my heart.. A hug's a way to share the joy & sad times i go through or just a way for friends to say... Hugs are not only nice. they are needed... Hugs can relieve my pain and my depression.. make the healthier happier, and the most secure even more so.. Hugging feels good and overcomes my fear...and Inside ur hug is the best place to be..

Hugs are meant for anyone for whom we really care, from ur mom to u, from ur grandma to ur neighbour or a cuddly teddy bear... A hug is something special for me, A hug can give me such joy... Its wonderous what A Hug can do.. A Hug can cheer me when i am blue... A Hug can say I LOVE YOU or I HATE TO SEE U GO"...

For me A hug is an amazing thing... It's just the perfect way to show the love i am feeling but can't find the words to say... i Never be afraid to express care and concern i never know if one day It will be my turn... A hug can put things right again when everything seems wrong...

It's funny how a little hug makes everyone feel good, In every place and language... It's always understood & hugs don't need new equipment, Special batteries or parts.. A hug can be a lovely thing
It doesn't have to contain a touch, i Just open up my arms & open up my hearts. ..

A Hug can give me love and comfort... A hug can wash away my tear...A hug can reach me anywhere whether i am far away or near... So if u're feeling lonely sad or even blue remember a hug isn't far away
Just call and I'll bring one to u... Oh, I love hugging. I wish I was an octopus... so I cud hug 10 peoples at a time!

No matter where u are, I'll always find my way to Hug u tight... In ur arms I feel so great. I'd give u a big hug everyday if I cud along with some kisses... u know I wud.. So I'm sending u a special hug...and i hope u can feel it too , i always remember when u hug me tight....u give the sweetest hugs. Every time u hug me.... i wish i cud have A Hug from u.... i missed them...

Whether ur Day Is Good Or Bad, u’ll Find A Hug for every mood... happy or sad. So if u Sud feel the need for A Great big hug from Me.. Simply open this wonderful note and Get urself A Hug!

For u, From me.....

hugs,
DA

What A Hug can do......

Tuesday, June 29, 2010 at 1:36am

Hug...While hugging may not be as erotic or arousing, it's can be a very comforting and romantic form of affection. i can cuddle together on the couch, give my partner a bear hug, wrap ur arms around each when i am cold, or embrace before a kiss. Remember that i can't wrap love in a box, but i can always wrap a person in a hug...

There's something in a simple hug, That always warms my heart.. A hug's a way to share the joy & sad times i go through or just a way for friends to say... Hugs are not only nice. they are needed... Hugs can relieve my pain and my depression.. make the healthier happier, and the most secure even more so.. Hugging feels good and overcomes my fear...and Inside ur hug is the best place to be..

Hugs are meant for anyone for whom we really care, from ur mom to u, from ur grandma to ur neighbour or a cuddly teddy bear... A hug is something special for me, A hug can give me such joy... Its wonderous what A Hug can do.. A Hug can cheer me when i am blue... A Hug can say I LOVE YOU or I HATE TO SEE U GO"...

For me A hug is an amazing thing... It's just the perfect way to show the love i am feeling but can't find the words to say... i Never be afraid to express care and concern i never know if one day It will be my turn... A hug can put things right again when everything seems wrong...

It's funny how a little hug makes everyone feel good, In every place and language... It's always understood & hugs don't need new equipment, Special batteries or parts.. A hug can be a lovely thing
It doesn't have to contain a touch, i Just open up my arms & open up my hearts. ..

A Hug can give me love and comfort... A hug can wash away my tear...A hug can reach me anywhere whether i am far away or near... So if u're feeling lonely sad or even blue remember a hug isn't far away
Just call and I'll bring one to u... Oh, I love hugging. I wish I was an octopus... so I cud hug 10 peoples at a time!

No matter where u are, I'll always find my way to Hug u tight... In ur arms I feel so great. I'd give u a big hug everyday if I cud along with some kisses... u know I wud.. So I'm sending u a special hug...and i hope u can feel it too , i always remember when u hug me tight....u give the sweetest hugs. Every time u hug me.... i wish i cud have A Hug from u.... i missed them...

Whether ur Day Is Good Or Bad, u’ll Find A Hug for every mood... happy or sad. So if u Sud feel the need for A Great big hug from Me.. Simply open this wonderful note and Get urself A Hug!

For u, From me.....

hugs,
DA

Best Thing That Ever Happened To Me

Dear you....


I know we don't get to talk or see each other much. But being apart for now doesn't change the way I feel about u in my heart. Sure I'm lonely, and sometimes I'm overwhelmed with this emptiness in my chest. But, just remember that I love u and everything bout u...

That's what gets me through every minute of every day that I'm without u. Sweetheart, u don't know what I wud give to kiss ur lips, feel ur touch, or even just to see u. I long to hold u and feel ur sweet caress. I've never loved anyone as much as I love u...

u make me feel loved, you make me feel safe, but more importantly, u make me feel wanted. We both knew our friendship wud grow right from the very first day we spoke. But, neither one of us cud begin to imagine the love we both feel, not exploding or thundering into our hearts, but just slowly growing into a beautiful relationship that only u and I can understand. u are my soul mate, my best friend, my inspiration, and my love.

I don't care if u forget our first kiss, our first date, just as long as u remember that I love u with every aching bone in my body no matter what. Having ur love has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't care what others say about u and me. All I know is that I love u, and that will never change.

Love always,
DA

I am so glad to be loved by someone very special like u....

Thursday, July 1, 2010 at 11:27pm

Dear kamu....

Let me start by saying that I thank God every night since I found u. u came into my life when everything seemed so dark but u provided the light to find my way...I thought all along, that nobody can ever make me happy and win my hardened heart... until I met u...That God sent u here to a place where u’d be Sharing such love with someone like me...

I love u so much, my love... u mean more than anything in this world to me...ur all part of me now don't u know, u've given me love...u cheer me up each time I'm sad, I'll always be right here for u...

I've never been so certain of anything in my life like I am of us...u have totally changed my outlook in life and I thank u for that. I never thought that someone cud love me like u do, but guess what? I love u that much too...u've really changed my life and I thank God, I am loved and cherished by someone like u

I feel as if I'm walking over clouds just thinking bout u... u make my life complete. I know u've said we cud do foolish things while in love, but u know what? With u, I wudn't mind being a fool for the rest of my life. I love u so much and I know u love me too...

I know that others looking into our relationship might think that we're saying too many foolish things too soon but they just don't know how we feel about each other. There's nothing foolish bout the things I've told u, I meant every word I said...I love u...

I wud do anything, I love u so much. Today I promise u... that I wud do anything in my power to make u a great person, good friend, outstanding lover, amaizing partner and loving soulmate... Every day and every night, In my heart I hold u tight and I thank god from up above, for giving me u lot to love....

once again, Thank God I found u at last, I am so glad to be loved by someone very special like u...


I LOVE YOU!!
DA

My Life ?

My life?

It isn't easy to explain....

and I've learned that not everyone can say this about their lives. But do not be misled.
I am nothing special... of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life.

There are no monuments dedicated to me, and my name will soon be forgotten, but I have loved someone with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.”

u will find as u look back upon ur life that the moments when u have really lived are the moments when u have done things in the spirit of love..Without pain, there would be no suffering, without suffering we would never learn from our mistakes. To make it right, pain and suffering is the key to all windows, without it, there is no way of life. Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate ur mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from....

i have many regret in my life...Many people make the mistake.. i never meant to hurt u..im so sorry for what i've done..im ruined my life...

As I look back on all that's happened..growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me, there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together.

As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss u and how much I truly love u. The past may be gone forever..and whatever the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow. So, it is with all my heart that I send u my love, hoping that u'll always carry my smile with u, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold. Once a place becomes special, it's no longer special.

If I've done anything I'm very sorry , I'm willing to be forgiven...

Yesterday is but a dream, tomorrow but a vision. But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness, and every tomorrow a vision of hope. Look well, therefore, to this day. Such is the salutation to the dawn...

Live everyday as though it's your last 'cause one day you'll be right...



best,
DA

If I had just one moment to live...I wud be spending it with u...

Dear kamu,

i admit i were never the perfect one, i was never always there for u... I didn’t make u smile at times but there is one thing I admit I did.. I was the best person I cud be for u...

I don't know why u are so special to me? why I like u so much? Why I care for u? Why I always think of u all day? Why I loved u but one thing for sure I know that my life won't be like this without u!...

I've always wanted a world of my own were I can do whatever I want, were I cud live alone, till I come to know u, now I wanted to have world shared by two, a paradise shared with u... I never know what the future brings but I know u're here with me now, We’ll make it through & I hope u are the one I share my life with...

There is no greater happiness than having u and no greater bliss than sharing this life with u. If I had one breath to spare...If I had just one moment to live...I wud be spending it with u....

with love..
DA

I will never forget u not matter how hard I try....

Thursday, March 4, 2010 at 1:15am

Dear Kamu....

This was a letter I had written to u who I fell deeply in love with and u knew how much I loved u and u used me not only that went out with u. I wrote this for u and I while I was crying while our song was playing bcos I learned I had to let go, I hope u enjoy...

I loved u, u liked my best friend...but i took u because I love u. u dumped me, now i cant stop thinking bout u. I cryed maytimes but u'll never know how much it hurts me when u leave me, but u just dont, probably never will know how much I love u...

I promised myself I wud not cry. Then a silent tear falls from my eyes...Tears are falling from my eyes, as I sit and cry at night. blood is dripping from my heart, as I try to write. I have so much pain, I'm hurt a lot, I can't explain all this, I'm just falling apart.

What did I do, what did I say, To make u change ur mind, the day u went away. Everyday, waiting for a sign To let me know, u might still want to be mine.

I lie down and try to close my eyes, but all I can picture is ur face. The sweet face of an Angel that hurt me so deeply. I can picture ur smile, ur eyes and ur laugh And hear ur silly voice saying I love u and I’ll never hurt u anymore, trust me.

Every thing reminds me of u, When I hear the door I look in anticipation waiting for u to enter, and give me a hug letting me know u still care. My life now is so empty filled with sadness and gloom, in a room once that was lit up by u. I can’t stop this crying I’m just hurting so bad.

I pray to the lord when I lie down my head, please come, and take me away from this pain, for I never want to feel it again. Why cud u ever hurt me this way, even after u promised me day after day, that ur love was forever and u’ll never stray? u tell me its not me it was all u, but how cud u play my heart just like a fool. I’m torn all apart inside and out, I’m sad and lonely and wish I was dead...

why should I care about my life when it was so easy for u to let go? I didn’t even see u shed a tear it seemed as thou you didn’t even care. I can’t even sleep really sometimes maybe an hour or two.. this is all because I STILL LOVE YOU! u and others tell me I’ll heal, but I never really will. It’s not easy to let go of all those years, and it’s not any easier to hold back my tears... I can’t see how u cud just let go..

I know soon the good lord, will tell me to lie down and rest, for he will send his angels to come and get me, and take all my pain away. The pain that u caused when u left me that day, and the pain of my heart that’s slowly drifting away.

The hurt that u have laid a pond me I will always carry, threw my eternity. Ok I must lie down now I’m feeling weaker and weak....

u promised me that u’ll always love me, and be my best friend. After u took the key and unlocked my heart, u threw that key away and tore out my heart. Even after u promised we would never part. u said goodbye like our love didn’t mean a thing, I really can’t help it I STILL LOVE YOU!..

I will always Love u, I just wish u cud understand that and give back my Heart, which u tore out. I will never forget u not matter how hard I try....

Love always and forever..
DA