Suddenly...

I close my eyes and try to go to sleep but with the sadness inside I begin to weep.... Suddenly I remember what

u once said to me, Just meet me in the stars, waiting for u I will be... DA

i'm not supposed to...

I'm not supposed to think of u or wonder where u've been but no matter how hard I fight it thoughts of u always sneak in without me knowing.... DA

Tonight is a perfect time to tell u...

Tonight

is the perfect time to tell you, what you mean to me.... How I depend on you to love me for who I am and believe in me, for what I hope to be. How I feel loved each time you smile or touch my hand and, when I need someone to listen, I know you'll understand.... I celebrate my love for you, grateful that we have the happiness life gives to just a few... DA

Until the end of time...

I'm going to try to speak the words that my heart wants you to know.... I want you to see what you mean to me and why I love you so. Nobody else can know my thoughts and touch my soul like you can. No one can melt my heart like you do.... simply by holding my hand. With a loving glance or a tender kiss you make my cares disappear. Warm thoughts of you surround me and always keep you near. I need nothing more from you than this to know that you'll always be mine and the promise of your love in my life.... u

. DA

I think of u

With the start of each new day. I find myself thinking of u in the middle of my busy day, my mind wanders and I think of u... Out of nowhere I see ur smile, hear ur laugh and I think of u... Life is beautiful now because I fall in love all over again each time I think of u.... DA

Jika....

jika memang nafas ku ini harus pisah dari ragaku.. Aku tidak akan pernah berhenti mencintai kamu... DA

Tenangkan hati ini...

Lelah rasa nya hati ini selalu untuk disakiti, tapi aku harus berdiri dan jalani segala rasa sakit dihati meskipun sekarang aku sendiri aku harus mengakhiri untuk tenangkan hati ini... DA

ikhlas

Aku berikan yang terbaik untuk dia yang bukan lagi menjadi milikku dan aku mulai belajar ikhlas dan berusaha keras meninggalkan bayang-bayang dia tanpa harus melupakan dia yang akan selalu ada di hati ku dan aku pun akan tetap tersenyum walaupun aku tidak bisa menjaga dia dan tak lagi bersama dia... DA

Dear Kamu....

Dear kamu...


How cud u never care about me... I’m dying inside, which you will never see... u never even call. Just to talk to me... u don’t text either. So ur love I don’t see, u’re not the one who wipes my tears at night nor are u the one who chases away my frights....

Dear kamu...


How cud u just leave me like this, u didn’t even come back for one last kiss... how cud u have a partner and just leave that’s no way to act, that’s no way to behave....

Dear kamu....
I want to know why u decided not to be part of my life, I want to know why u have no heart at all and how u can have a best friend, a brother, a soulmate, a partner, a lover... u don’t see, texting, or call?....





DA

Although u're gone, u still feel so close

The memories of u are engraved within my heart, Nothing in this world cud ever tear us apart b'cos u’re not here, Some think that u’re gone but I tell them better Let’s say u just moved on. I try to stay positive to keep u watching over me, Some think it’s crazy but I know u’ve got to be. I remembered how we were pretty close, I hope I can say u were so beautiful... I’ll never forget those days.... U were such a fun person and ur personality was great. All the guys loved u most. I know how u were and how u were so shy but I wish u told me one thing.... I wish u wud have said goodbye... I spend most of my time thinking of u and reminiscing of the things we said we’d do. What I wudn’t give to be in ur place, I’d give the whole world... Just to see ur face. Some say I’m going crazy or maybe insane but they don’t understand this heartbreaking pain... u were my drug, my source to get high but I really do wish u wud have said goodbye.... I’ve been thinking of the days when we used to sit together. I now cherish those moments... I also hope u remember. U’re always in my head and I can’t get u out, I get so mad at times. That I just want to shout. I feel as if pieces are missing like a book with no end. Too late to tell u how I feel..... Now and forever, only a friend... My old memories of u fly by me fast and everything I remember of u is now in the past. All the sweet thoughts of u brings a tear to my eye. I miss u so much, I hope heavens good to u and I hope u get ur Wings and maybe when I get there u can show me all the beautiful things. I really don’t want to say it but please wait for me knowing ur up there. I really can’t wait to be... That day when angels came down was a sad day of grief. When I first found out I stood in disbelief.... Although u’re gone, u still feel so close. Maybe it’s the thought of missing u the most... DA

love, faith, hope and happiness.....

I take a deep breathe and sigh.... I picture ur smile, the innocence in ur laughter in my mind... I think of how u have brought so much love, faith, hope and happiness into my life... DA

I had learn that when u walked out the door...

used to listen, when u said u wud always be there... I sit and think about all the times we had together, and how I thought I used to love you, when you used to care. I'd last through any weather.... but when the our storm came u left at the first sight of rain, leaving me here to deal with all this pain... I sat there crying thinking what did I do wrong, I looked to ur picture on the wall... so I wiped my tears and begin a new, new me, new life, and happiness without u... someday u'll miss me, but it will be never to late for us to be i guess. U didn't know what I was missing but now u do, I love you too that's why I'm letting u go, I'm a hell of a good man it's too bad it took u this long to know.... what we had is in the past, it's a reason we didn't last, but whenever u get discouraged bout why we're through, I just look in the mirror b'cos it's all on me... I hope next time i learn from my mistakes and i did learn from my fault, Please always remember this I love u.... I love me more, I had to learn that when u walked out the door.....

DA

The most amazing moment was when we met, The love and time I have shared with u have all been without regret... In spite of our love... I am painfully aware that u are gone and no longer there... u made up ur mind and u went away... as things started to not feel right... I know it's pointless to wish for u to stay b'cos at the end of the tunnel there is no more light. Often I don’t know what to say or do.. So many times, I have cried over u... Emptiness and sorrow is now a part me, Since I have to accept, that we will never be...but... Our memories continue to live in my heart. As I wish u well, with ur brand-new start. Please, believe me when I say, u will always be with me come what may... DA

Why it has to be me...?

I am sitting alone and silently, I recall a special part of my life.... That part came unexpectedly and lasted only for a while. My life has been quite and peaceful until that unforgettable moment, u came like a silhouette of my soul then u walked right through my heart. Everyday was a picture of happiness, there's no hint of loneliness... Everything was wonderful b'cos I spent it with u but then, as time goes by, ur feelings begin to fade away... my tears fall down one by one and it kills me when u said say goodbye. Every time my mind says move on, my heart says hold on... so many questions inside my head but the answers are all up to u... Loving someone like me, maybe without boundaries makes u think deeply, why...

DA

the same way....

I'm wishing that someday, u'll miss me terribly that no matter how hard u'll look for me, u wudn't find me...b'cos I want u to miss me the same way I'm missing u... DA

i"ll never know...

I try to talk to u, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid u don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out and tell u how I feel-like how I miss u and how I love you despite my broken heart and how I need u in my life. especially how much I want u but those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside.... Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside u too...

DA

My promises

Promise that u'll never go.... Promise I will always be in ur heart... Promise that u'll do u best... Promise to put the games to rest.... Promise I'll be the one u... Promises are love will grow to come... Promise that u'll be my mate... Promise to love me with all it take.... Promise if we grow apart u'll never break my heart... Promise if u have to got u sud carry with u my soul... Promise I will love u too... Promise I won't break ur heart... Promise if I have to go I will take with me u soul... DA

This is my promise

I will love you with all my heart,  To have forever - never to part.... This is a promise engrained in me,  Take my hand and let it be.  I will go to the ends of the earth if that is what u need, Just say yes and let ur soul take the lead. This is a promise at the core of me, Kiss my lips and let this be....

I will wipe ur tears with no questions asked, No more will ur feelings be masked. This is a promise I make to u, Look into my eyes and follow through. I will know how to hold u... just by the look in your eye, I will never forget - not even on the day that I die....

This is a promise of my passion for u, smile at me and make it true. I will support u even when I cannot support myself anymore, I will dig deeper and find the hidden strength at my inner core. This promise means I sacrifice all of me for u, Understan

this- and make our lives anew....

I will love u with everything so deep inside and to only u - this gift I shall confide. This is a promise so incredibly real, kiss me my love and u shall feel...

if there’s something i can do, let me know

i feel guilty for making u upset, i really didn’t mean to... I realize I’ve started taking our time together for granted and I need to stop. other than saying I’m sorry, I don’t know how else to apologize... if there’s something i can do, let me know... u know how to reach me... DA

hopefully no glass separating our eyes....

I only need to be around u to make me very happy. My thoughts still slip back to u, making life difficult...I go through my day,nothing is joyful. I close my eyes and there u are, ur crooked smile, tracing ur lips, tasting u. It hurts for me not to see u or talk to u. I still cant stop dreaming of u. You’ve consumed my thoughts. Any chance I have to be around u, I will take... I’ll always be ur friend and be around for u . I am sorry if I have made things in ur life difficult. Looking forward to the next time we see each other,

DA

I chose not to hate u b'cos it leaves less space for me to love other people...

I can't believe u wud do this to me... I can't believe all u have done. We had a future planned and u chose what u chose. Seems so easy for u to move on... Maybe u didn't really love me. I know that i loved u and still do but i know we will never be again... Some days are harder than others. Everything makes me think about u. I chose not to hate u b'cos it leaves less space for me to love other people. I know what I am worth and how good i treated u. Whoever ur with or whomever u find may be great but there will always be little things u miss about me... One day u will want me back and I will be in the arms of someone who deserves me...

DA

Dear Kamu....

dear kamu.... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Monday, February 13, 2012 at 11:11pm · Dear kamu, I will always regret that day that I broke up with u. u meant so much to me. u're my world, my love, and my best friend. I remember those days. Those days were the best days that I've ever had in my life... I love you so much and I miss u. I miss the little things u did like calling me Bear... tears come out of my eyes as soon as u said “it’s over” and i wanted to drop down on my keens and beg u to forgive me. Every time I'm away from u I feel so empty... I know I have made a ton of mistakes but I wud like to put those behind us, if at all possible, so we can move on with the rest of our lives, live on with the good and leave the bad behind us. I know that will be hard, especially after all that I have done... i wud turn back time and redo all the wrongs I have done to u and make them right. I just hope u find it in ur heart to forgive me for all the things I've done to u and take me back. I sud have done a lot of things better now I will do better... I know that u wud never come back to me because u're afraid that I might hurt u again, but that's not true. I wud never hurt u ever again if u give me another chance... I love you more today then I did before, it just gets stronger with time... it doesn't fade. I will always love u, this much I'm sure of. I wudn't ask for diamonds, gold or a million rupiahs. None of that cud make me as happy as I wud be to just have u in my life once again! Love always, DA

The Guy is me...

The Guy is me... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Tuesday, February 28, 2012 at 9:09pm · the guy who seemed unbreakable is finally starting to break, the one who seemed so strong its crumbling apart, the one who always laughs it off is constantly crying, the guy who wud never give up from what his love, finally quit trying.. the guy is me... DA

Thank You for loving me...

Thank You for loving me... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Tuesday, February 28, 2012 at 10:34pm · Dear kamu.... U came to my life unexpectedly... u came to my private world with ur understanding heart and I told to myself that u were different from the very start... u listened without judgment to what I had about me to say and even after I was done with my immaturity, craziness, in short u saw all the good and the bad, yet u never let go... We developed a friendship with love, with no walls to build or guard, I’ve grown to love u with no hidden agenda but with only the real me... only me, I let u see and know the guy who never let anyone to his world... Letting u get to know about me what most people never see... I’m writing this to u for u to understand, That spending time with u is so precious, Seriously... I never want to let go ur hand... The time that we spend apart can't equal when we talked and exchanging messages. That’s what I felt and feel... I want to thank u for always understanding me and loving me... ur the man I wished I wud have met to share my lifeI miss u so much but when we meet again will be so much better...I am sorry for everything. I don’t know really anymore if am talking with sense now... All I know now is I want my old self back. The guy who will just be content looking his partner's families are happy and let his own happiness to be his partner's happiness... he's still needs his partner to carry our private world... He tried to share his world again with his partner but it never worked. Not b'cos of u I know that.... It is ME and no one else fault.... I love you so much that’s why I’m letting u go.... Letting u go b'cos I know am not good enough for u... and i know what's best for u... Thank you for all the love u gave me… I will treasure all the good and bad moments we shared together… Thank you for loving me... DA

Hati ku....

Hati ku.... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Friday, March 23, 2012 at 4:01pm · Diriku dan Hatiku... Diriku senang karena hati..... Diriku bahagia karena hati.... DIriku bahagia karena hati... DIriku mencintai karena hati... DIriku dicintai pula karena hati... DIriku membenci karena hati... DIriku dibenci karena adanya hati... DIriku menangis karena adanya hati... DIriku ditangisi karena adanya hati... Diriku kecewa karena hati.... Diriku menyesal karena hati.... Diriku marah karena hati.... Semua itu karena kamu, hati.... Hidup ku terpaut pada kamu, hati.... DIriku takan bisa hidup karena kamu, hati.... karena DIriku hidup karena kamu, hati....Terima kasih diriku masih memiliki mu, hatiku.... DA

There is no “I fucked up. I’m sorry... I love you” bullshit...

There is no “I fucked up. I’m sorry... I love you” bullshit. by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Thursday, April 5, 2012 at 12:14am · I know I fucked up... I know I made a huge mistake. I was a big enough person to admit that... I apologized. I promised u that things wud get better.... The problem is, only one of us wants to fix things. Only one of us has the strength, the want, and the desire to be together like we said we would. It’s not fair that u’re doing this. It’s not fair that u’re putting me through this. It’s not fair that I changed my whole life plan, and sat around waiting for a year for u to come back home, just so that u cud tell me u’re done 2 years into being home. It’s complete bullshit... I hate myself for ever caring about u. I hate myself for loving u the way I do... u’re so easy minded about everything, while I beat myself up for everything, my fault or not. I can’t take the constant turmoil anymore. I can’t take u going back... I need stability. I need love. I need intimacy. I needed u and I end up with nothing... u’ve made ur decision, and that’s it. There’s no turning back. u wanted to be without me, and that’s exactly what u’re gonna do. There is no “I fucked up. I’m sorry... I love you” bullshit. I bought that too many times. I’m going to move on with my life. WIthout u.... DA

u are the one person i wanted to spend the rest of my life walking up too...

u are the one person i wanted to spend the rest of my life walking up too... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Wednesday, April 4, 2012 at 11:56pm · after all the hurt and pain that i suffered from ur actions... I know u suffered also from mine. why is it that I miss u even more, i was then and still am i love with u... why do i search for u?... b'cos for the first time in my life I felt safe and loved... u are the one person i wanted to spend the rest of my life walking up to u... u have left such a hole in my heart in ur absent... why is it that i have over come every obstacle in my life that was holding me down except u !.... did it ever cross ur mind that maybe u are the one for me and that's why I dont hate u, that u can't be replaced.. i am so picky when it comes to guys and u touch and hit ever scence of what turns me on, i am living my life but their is someting missing and I so badly want to be at ur side anymore, I pray that u're okay... I can't begin to let someone else in b'cos u are so deep in my heart. I don't hate u, i hate this feeling i have and wish i knew what to do bout u... DA

kau bahagia ku...

kau bahagia ku... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Sunday, March 11, 2012 at 10:54pm · Aku merasakan sebuah kata bahagia, kebahagiaan saat pertama kali kau datang didalam hidupku, menjalin sebuah kisah cinta yang indah saat ku bersamamu, kau telah berikan semua apa yang selama ini aku cari di dunia ini. Aku ingin kau selalu ada di sisiku, menemani aku yang selalu cinta padamu, aku tak ingin kau pergi dari hidupku, karena semua keindahaan yang kini aku rasakan pun ikut bahagiai. Aku akan berikan seluruh cintaku hanya ke padamu, akan aku berikan cinta suci ini, ku akan selalu setia padamu, menjagamu agar kau tak akan pergi dari hidupku...karena kau bahagia ku... DA

I will fall for u all over again...

I will fall for u all over again... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Friday, May 4, 2012 at 9:34pm · I wonder what the days will bring, Never knowing when the phone will ring.... I wait for u to take my heart, but it seems u have had it from the start. I've tried to let others in, But I cannot trust them until this comes to an end... We have tried so many times, but once in a while, things tire. I really want to be with u, but you want to be with others too... No matter what happens in the end, I will fall for u all over again... DA

one day u will want me and accept me back...

one day u will want me and accept me back... by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Thursday, April 5, 2012 at 12:02am · I still can't believe u wud do this to me... I can't believe all u have done. We had a future planned and u chose what u chose... Seems so easy for u to move on, maybe u didn't really love me... I know that i loved you and still do but i know we will never be again... some days are harder than others... everything makes me think bout u, I chose not to hate u b'cose it leaves less space for me to love other people... I know what I am worth and how good i treated u. Whoever ur with or whomever u find may be great but there will always be little things u miss bout me. One day u will want me and accept me back and I will be in the arms of someone who deserves me... DA

important things i know...

In loving relationships, there are several important things i know... One of these is that the key to a successful relationship is being able to apologize. The more intimately i am involved with another person, the more difficult it becomes to say I'm sorry... i am aware of ur faults and u are aware of mine. It is very easy in the heat of battle to hurt my partner in a very sensitive place... As my partner, u trusted me by forming a relationship and letting urself be vulnerable. When i say, I'm sorry, it must be done with the sensitivity to understand the line that was crossed... DA

i am sorry i was stupid

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell u what it is for me... love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about my self, including the things i might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at me... DA

Love is...

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell u what it is for me...  love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about my self, including the things i might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at me...

 DA