[ Just writing that puts a smile on my face ]: I will never forget u not matter how hard I try....

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I will never forget u not matter how hard I try....

Thursday, March 4, 2010 at 1:15am

Dear Kamu....

This was a letter I had written to u who I fell deeply in love with and u knew how much I loved u and u used me not only that went out with u. I wrote this for u and I while I was crying while our song was playing bcos I learned I had to let go, I hope u enjoy...

I loved u, u liked my best friend...but i took u because I love u. u dumped me, now i cant stop thinking bout u. I cryed maytimes but u'll never know how much it hurts me when u leave me, but u just dont, probably never will know how much I love u...

I promised myself I wud not cry. Then a silent tear falls from my eyes...Tears are falling from my eyes, as I sit and cry at night. blood is dripping from my heart, as I try to write. I have so much pain, I'm hurt a lot, I can't explain all this, I'm just falling apart.

What did I do, what did I say, To make u change ur mind, the day u went away. Everyday, waiting for a sign To let me know, u might still want to be mine.

I lie down and try to close my eyes, but all I can picture is ur face. The sweet face of an Angel that hurt me so deeply. I can picture ur smile, ur eyes and ur laugh And hear ur silly voice saying I love u and I’ll never hurt u anymore, trust me.

Every thing reminds me of u, When I hear the door I look in anticipation waiting for u to enter, and give me a hug letting me know u still care. My life now is so empty filled with sadness and gloom, in a room once that was lit up by u. I can’t stop this crying I’m just hurting so bad.

I pray to the lord when I lie down my head, please come, and take me away from this pain, for I never want to feel it again. Why cud u ever hurt me this way, even after u promised me day after day, that ur love was forever and u’ll never stray? u tell me its not me it was all u, but how cud u play my heart just like a fool. I’m torn all apart inside and out, I’m sad and lonely and wish I was dead...

why should I care about my life when it was so easy for u to let go? I didn’t even see u shed a tear it seemed as thou you didn’t even care. I can’t even sleep really sometimes maybe an hour or two.. this is all because I STILL LOVE YOU! u and others tell me I’ll heal, but I never really will. It’s not easy to let go of all those years, and it’s not any easier to hold back my tears... I can’t see how u cud just let go..

I know soon the good lord, will tell me to lie down and rest, for he will send his angels to come and get me, and take all my pain away. The pain that u caused when u left me that day, and the pain of my heart that’s slowly drifting away.

The hurt that u have laid a pond me I will always carry, threw my eternity. Ok I must lie down now I’m feeling weaker and weak....

u promised me that u’ll always love me, and be my best friend. After u took the key and unlocked my heart, u threw that key away and tore out my heart. Even after u promised we would never part. u said goodbye like our love didn’t mean a thing, I really can’t help it I STILL LOVE YOU!..

I will always Love u, I just wish u cud understand that and give back my Heart, which u tore out. I will never forget u not matter how hard I try....

Love always and forever..
DA

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My Affection Notes

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