Maybe u just don't get it ... (page 5-end)

I can no longer post my feelings or words.. b’cos I have said all that I can possibly say.. maybe u will find meaning in all my actions in the future… I bust work myself into an early grave but i guess u simply cant see this.. u mean so much but i feel i mean so little… i will constantly wish for the day u believe.. I’m sorry if I put u through to much.. my love is worth it and it grows and changes… maybe one day.. u will truly see it for what it is.. but what meaning does it have my actions or my words if u refuse to see or believe in me.. I do believe in u and i really have never lost faith.. even though in times of anger I have said that I have …

All I can say is sorry.. I never wanted for my love to be a casket… it will continue to grow and change for the better.. and i hope one day i can prove it.. i need u to do the same if u will just hear me.. i need equality.. but for that u have to be ready.. so friends it is no expectations… just a hope and a prayer.. Let the future bring whatever it will b’cos at least with u by my side in friendship I can battle any foe… I cherish all of ur advice and words of wisdom even if I’ve to learn lessons on my own as must u…

>>>>> The End

Maybe u just don't get it ... (page 4)

IF u want something more than what u told me.. why not just say it.. If u want me one day when ur ready.. I’ll always be there and that is why I can date but it will never mean a thing.. honestly, i wud rather be alone then to not be with u… and if I’m not with u .. i can forget many things but i wont go into all of that… All I can say is ur words only cause me confusion.. ur actions I never know what to think… For now I just want to be friends.. so we can let the past go.. get to know each other and then fromt there as u have said who knows and I want the pain to stop for so many reasons but I’ve shown u love why can’t u ever see the good only to focus on the bad...

U are amazing person and always will be… I’ve faith that u will one day grow into all that I know u can be… Friendship was built to last especially ours and that is why i know that if we ever give ourselves a chance in the future it wud last but for now we each need to focus on growing and fixing our lives… I hope and pray, one day u will realize how much I really do love u b’cos right now I dont think u do and maybe u never have.. We both have our insecurities and I’m working on mine but when the time comes we’ve to be more open to discussion. i pray u will want it as much as i do...

For now, friendship will be our glue… without any expectations of the other.. a simple door remaining open sud u one day choose to walk through… u are my other half whether its as a friend or the other. We need each other but i agree the stress for us both has built up walls.. one day i know they will fall but for now we’ve to simply forget bout the past so we can live day by day and one day in the future as u have said.. who knows, but i know damn well i am worth it… whether u ever admit that to me or not and whether u see it through my actions or not.. u will and always have been worth it to me...

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Maybe u just don't get it ... (page 3)

Maybe u just don’t get it… ( Page 3 )

I love u utterly completely but if u cannot see my actions then for that I am sorry.. u may have no idea what I have done for u b’cos I do not like u to feel bad nor know the full extent of what I have done to make sure u were ok and try to make u happy.. cuz that is not what it is about.. I can’t stand us fighting even though we never really do and maybe we should have.. U've enough stress so thats the last thing I wish to be.. I really just want to know u.. learn and grow old with u.. I’m so sorry for all of the past. I wud like to start brand new.. concentrate on our friendship and maybe u will realize that I mean as much to u as u do to me...

If u think my actions do not show it.. how am i to know that u even care if we were to go there… for ur actions have never backed up what u have said… I know the truth of what my heart feels and how it will always be.. u can believe it or choose not to… its ur choice one i cannot make for u and u get to this point where u get scared and hurt me.. when i am not crazy u have talked about the future and us together.. but that is the past and maybe one day in the future .. for now its day by day… I don’t neglict u.. i try not to seem needy or bring more stress into ur life.. I do what I can but it never seems enough.. i am at loss for what I can do.. I’ve never stopped trying but I guess u are blind and cannot see…

All that really matters is u, If I really have been there more than anyone else and done all these things to help u.. why cant u just see love is the cause and the reason.. it helps u when u are miserable and yes sometimes it causes pain but only b’cos of all the confusion… or maybe i am deluded… my heart is locked and u alone hold the key… I don’t know what else to say.. so maybe I sud stop talking b’cos I dont think I’m getting through.. Our days are not numbered we will always be friends.. I love u .. on that I’ll defend and u can depend..

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Maybe u just don't get it ... (page 2

Yes I say alot of words and the ones from the bottom of my heart I mean them. Despite how hard this all is.. I’m still here and I don’t leave… Do u know I’ve never fought this hard or this much to keep anyone in my life?... U are worth it even if u do not see it.. Stress is the only real burden I have… I don’t just want u but I need u. Maybe one day u will realize its a fact.. I need u in my life and I’m willing to pay whatever the cost.. If there was something I cud do to prove it.. just tell me, It wont be a loss..

I do back up my words till u tell me they have no meaning or that its not what u want… if u are not clear.. how do i know what to do.. when everything I do seems so wrong.. I’ve tried to move on but it simply does not work but i continue to try at ur request.. I don’t want to move on but i will move forward with my life that’s what u want from me.. I pray one day u will realize i love u best when u see it not as misery but something to cling onto. U’ve no idea what goes on in my head.. at times i wish u knew..

U complete me and I like to think I complete u but there is so much u are unwilling to let me do.. U are scared of our commitment and i cannot get into ur head. I dont want to leave u.. u will never lose my friendship but whose to say one day a relationship wud not work between us b’cos u’ve not ever been ready so u have never really tried… Well for ur sake and mine.. u will let the distance come between us.. so we may learn each other and grow.. I pray u will stop trying to leave me b’cos I simply can’t take that blow.. I just want to be what u need not a burden.. I wish u cud see me for what I really am...


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Maybe u just don’t get it… ( Page 1 )

by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Sunday, December 26, 2010 at 1:53am

Why confuse me.. when all I want is u.. Why tell me to move on when i really want u to stay… u leave me from ur life.. Unless that is what makes u happy.. I love u unconditionally and my actions have spoke louder than my words.. U simply refuse to see it.. I am ur friend will always be ur friend and I love u whether u want it or not.. I will never again let that be a burden or mess up the friendship we have.. U are far too important to me and I hope one day maybe things will change and u will decide u need me as more than ur friend.. ur partner in life.. I only ever wanted what was best even though at times ur emotions put us apart..



U're my world even when it’s not fair… I give u my all and seemingly u take me for granted.. U want everything and yet I give u nothing.. I wanted commitement and u cud give it.. How can’t I give something to u.. u say u do want it too… U constantly confuse me and mentally abuse me… I know u love me.. God help me, I love u too.. I love u like no other.. nor will I ever again.. ur it thats the end.. Sure I cud find someone else so I did not always feel so alone.. but they cud never be u… I wud never feel like I am home.. I try to do what u want and in the end it leaves me crying.. This love hurts thats true but its not all on u.. it is on me.. It causes misery only when u let it.. u refuse to keep hurting us both.. cause quite simply I’m not ready.. I stand firm that fate will one day we will cross that path again till then I’m working on me..



I wish, I cud get through to u.. Never ever have I left u.. U always leave me. Even when i hurt u.. u cud always depend on me.. I don’t understand why u always give up and that is the deepest cut of all.. U give up without even trying when all I do is try. Have u no understanding… U are the only one for me… I don’t know how much more I can do to show u.. So from now on I will let everything speak for itself.. I want to be what u need not a burden to ur health… I do want us to be together.. more than anything u seem to know.. but i can’t let any of this show how can I when everytime I do.. u go…



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101 WAYS to show u love somebody....(without having sex)

1. Tell the other person that you love them
2. Give or get a hug
3. Make sure the other person feels important and respected
4. Kiss when people are looking
5. Kiss when people aren't looking
6. Tell the other person that you care
7. Hold hands
8. Go for a long bike ride
9. Give a special present
10. Be there when they need a friend
11. Spend time together
12. Go to see a film
13. Walk arm in arm in the woods
14. Make a special tape of love songs
15. Talk about your feelings
16. Share dreams with each other
17. Snuggle up together
18. Sit together in the park
19. Take a walk together
20. Go out for a meal
21. Have a picnic
22. Play a game of frisbee
23. Give compliments
24. Relax in a jacuzzi
25. Go swimming
26. Just be close
27. Go shopping for food
28. Cook a meal together
29. Touch each other in a loving way
30. Do homework together
31. Plan and go on a trip together
32. Throw a party together
33. Bake a cake
34. Go to the library
35. Browse in a museum
36. Just be there
37. Find out what's special for the other person - and do it
38. Exercise together
39. Gaze at each other
40. Wash each other's cars (or bikes !)
41. Go fishing
42. Talk to each other
43. Listen to worries
44. Cut each other's toenails
45. Choose a special favourite song
46. Listen to joys
47. Hold one another close
48. Catch their eye
49. Write one another letters
50. Talk on the telephone
51. Trust one another
52. Give or receive a ring
53. Meet each other's family
54. Go hiking together
55. Make sacrifices for each other
56. Send chocolates
57. Respect each other
58. Go for a moonlight walk
59. Hide a love note where the other will find it
60. Give each other sexy looks
61. Write a poem
62. Send flowers
63. Eat dinner by candlelight
64. Go to a concert
65. Watch the sunrise together
66. Remember anniversaries
67. Give each other pet names
68. Go sightseeing
69. Rent a video
70. Do things for each other without being asked
71. Propose marriage
72. Whisper something nice into the other's ear
73. Be best friends
74. Have fun together
75. Go out dancing
76. Play music together
77. Flirt with each other
78. Laugh at something funny together
79. Be faithful
80. Impress each other
81. Make a list of things you like about each other
82. Read a book and discuss it
83. Meet each other's friends
84. Go horse riding
85. Cook each other's favourite food
86. Find out what makes each other happy
87. Make presents for each other
88. Wash each other's hair
89. Watch the sunset
90. Go for a bus trip
91. Have a request played on the radio
92. Send a funny card
93. Share your plans for the future
94. Play footsie
95. Share private jokes
96. Think about each other
97. Find out what makes the other sad
98. Go skating
99. Swap rings
100. Share an ice-cream
101. Have your picture taken together

i am only human....

I am only human, trying to find love. I am only human, going to make mistakes, going to have bad thought, to get envious & going to want more when I have enough. I am only human, one who gets confused, one who's afraid, I am only human, I can never be perfect but I try to be the best I can be...


(DA)

To hard.....

It's so hard to write...

When there is no inspiration...

It's so hard to love...

When I have no heart...

It's so hard to breath...

When there is no air...

It's so hard to miss u...

When u were never there...


DA

For my soulmate....

I hope everything's alright. That u can keep up the fight, u're gonna get through this bad time... In the end everything's gonna be just fine b'cos u won't have to do this on ur own.

I'm here for u, u'll never be alone. Every minute of day and night, I want to be ur guiding light... Remember that I love u with all my heart, Soulmate, I never want us to part. A big hug from me for u. This will cheer you up, whatever u're going through.


DA

The word Love... Love is something we all can enjoy, It is something we all can share. Only with that special someone, Who we all care about but why are we scared of it?... I don't know why but if I wasn't, I wud tell u every time, Rain or shine... Every time we're apart I nearly cry b'cos this love inside of me is strong, There are no boundaries that it can hide, I want to scream it out but I'm too shy, So I wait and watch wishing, That I had the courage to tell u How much I feel inside.... MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER DIE. This is to that special someone. I Love You...

DA

If ever u need me...

If ever u need me... I'll be right here, To chase away the sadness and wipe away a tear...

If ever u need me... I'll be two steps behind, To follow in ur footsteps and hear what's on ur mind...

If ever u need me... u'll never have to fear, That ur presence isn't important and ur love isn't dear...

If ever u need me... I'll always be around, To bring back the laughter Where deep in ur heart it's found...

u'll never have to worry For I'll always be here, To chase away the sadness and wipe away a tear.

I am here for u!

DA

When I fall In love....

When I fall in love, I want to be with him always... In happiness, to smile with him and be the one to hug him near... In sadness, to cry with him and be the one to dry his tears...

When I fall in love, I will spend my every waking and sleeping moments with him and catch each moment in its eternally lovely form....

When I fall in love, I will miss him the very moment... I say 'goodbye and my heart
will yearn for the very moment I say 'hello'...

When I fall in love, all my old hurts and pains will seem lost and faded away and I will be strong and brave once again...

When I fall in love, I want you to be happy always, ever and feel like the happiest
person of them all b'cos that's what I will feel when I fall in love with u...

DA

For u....

I love everything about u, There's no one else like u... It's amazing how I feel when I'm around u. What did u do to make me fall in love with u?... With u I'm so happy, We're perfect for each other... I feel like we're meant to be, Don't you think?... I wudn't know what to do without ur love, u are the only reason why I smile, u have made my world whole, u are my everything... I love u... I need u... Don't let me g but if u want someone else, please let me know... u are the owner of my heart, Just promise me... u won't break it ever again. I'm all urs and I'm glad to say that u're all mine. Please never leave me. I wun't know what to do. Just promise me u won't... cause there's no one else like u...

DA

When i fall in love...

When i fall in love, nothing can change the way i feel. my heart pumps like mad but i feel nothing but love, i feel full up and i don’t even realise i haven’t eaten, i can’t sleep for thinking about him, i can’t concentrate for thinking about him and when i am with him?... i can hardly breathe for being close to him and knowing how good i cud be when he make me happy... i want to cry, When he makes me sad... i want him to be there when i cry.

When i feel my heart is breaking, nothing will take that feeling away. my heart pumps like mad but i feel nothing but grief, i feel full up but i know, i can’t and haven’t eaten anything in days... i don’t even want to sleep Not even if i am completely exhausted. i can’t concentrate knowing he's no longer mine and if i see him?... i can hardly breathe for being close to him and knowing what was meant to be has gone... i think of when he made me happy, i want to cry... i think of how i am now and i want him to be there when i cry...


DA

How did I fall In love with u?...

Remember when, we never needed each other, The best of friends like big brother and lil'Brother and said that we'd never be apart... We understood, we'd never be, Alone...

Those days are gone, and I want u so much... The night is long and I need ur touch Don't know what to say, I never meant to feel this way... Don't want to be Alone tonight...

What can I do, to make u mine... Falling so hard so fast this time. What did I say, what did u do?... How did I fall in love with u?

I hear ur voice and I start to tremble... Brings back that moment, I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends. Don't want to be, Alone tonight. I want to say this right and it has to be tonight.. Just need u to know.

I don't want to live this life, I don't want to say goodbye with u I wanna spend
The rest of my life...

What can I do, to make you mine... Falling so hard so fast this time. Everything's changed, we never knew... How did I fall in love with u?...

DA

I AM... Who I AM.....

I AM... Who I AM, Through all and B'cos of All I have done, All I have seen and All I have experienced... I AM Loved and loving, the more love i give, the more love i recieve and love is all around...

I AM... Who I AM, For what I have said and did not say, For what I have heard and not heard... I AM surrounded by love... I AM greatful for the love surround me... the love in my soul freely and fully express it self..

I AM... Who I AM, B'cos of all of u.. All who have been in my life, B'cos of all the love and no love... Today i release the past and allow the healing power of love into my life, I AM in love with my life... i joyfully express love everyday...

I AM... Who I AM.... B'cos God made me, B'cos God loves me... unconditionally, B'cos I AM...A child of God... i love my self exactly the way I AM...


I AM
[DA]

Not asking why anymore....

i know that thinking of u is a harmless and innocent enough thing for me to do, but
that doesn't make it any less tough when i imagine ur laughing kindness or the tender expression of ur eyes. i know it's ok to wonder idly what's between us
and whether it's more or less than we realize...

i catch myself sometimes trying to make sense and understand the meaning of our so-called crimes, when all that matters is calling u friend. i know this will be ok because it just feels right...

i'm learning to hope, and i know that deep down... we're both armed and ready for this fight. the sad flutter of our hearts won't make a sound. it's easiest when i stop thinking. when i let go and simply feel, it's in those moments i feel i am linking up somehow with something very real...

i believe in true love now in complete truth without fears. i tried before, but didn't know how to experience it without tears... i'm amazed with this new reality
cause i don't believe or see how... i'm deserving of all this beauty but i'm not asking why anymore for now....


DA

I don't know how I feel anymore.....

I don't know how I feel anymore, I'm really not sure why?... I'm trying to remember of all that maybe the cause. I tried my best to keep us together, I tried to tell you everything I can. I thought you loved me, Loved and cared for whom I am...

I've been untrue I know, I've hid my past, which is my mistake. I've tried to tell you many times... I just couldn't and I didn't... It was too late, yet I shared, Shared all that was hidden. You can't believe me I know... You can't trust me I know

You could have left me then, You should have told me then. At-least... You should have been honest, You should have been open... You were fake since that day, You lied that you loved me still... You said you did forgive, But not forget...

it's the past that you hid too. It's just the past that we didn't fully share, Our presence was never untrue.. Not one word that I lied but my past. I thought you knew my love was true, I thought you felt my care was true, I thought you did love me too, I really thought it was all true

We all make mistakes and I did too, I am the fool to be really true...


DA