i miss u

u are there and I am here thinking bout how much I love u... thinking about how much I respect u, thinking bout how much, I miss u...

u are there and I am here thinking about how much... I cannot wait until we are together again thinking about how. I will appreciate more than ever the time, we will spend together...

I love u
DA

Memories are Left ...

I want to be with u but u’re millions of miles away, I wish u wud call just to ask bout my day. It would make things so much better if I cud hear ur voice, I guess I can’t complain too much, it just wasn’t ur choice... u were always there for me through both the good times and the bad... U were always there to laugh with me, or to help me when I’m sad. It’s not that I pity u but I’ll admit ur life’s been tough, I just wish that physically, I cud be there when things get rough. Down at the mall even though we only had a cup coffee,
Laughing at anything and everything, yet none of it was funny...

Driving around Jakarta or other city, or cuddling and doing things silly all day, We never really ran out of things to say. u’re locked up only a few hours away now, but it seems so far... I wish, I cud be down there, where u are. Why do two best friends u’ll ever know. Have to be split up, b'cos one is forced to go? Now that we’re so far apart, I still love u even more... Maybe we both love too much. Each time they say ur name, A tear forms in my eye, How can I be happy, If all I seem to do is cry?... u weren’t supposed to leave me...

u have such a deep understanding of who I am, I hardly have to speak any words and u know just what I am saying... I really miss u and I want to be sure that u know that no matter where I go whom I meet or what I do... I'll never find as deep a Very Bestfriend, a trully brother, a great soulmate, a sweet partner and a n amaizin lover with anyone as I have with u. I don't like missing u, It is a very cold and lonely feeling... I wish that I cud be with u right now. where the warmth of our love wud melt in me but since I can't be with u right now, I will have to be content just dreaming bout when we'll be together again...

Though u are not here, wherever I go or whatever I do... I see ur face in my mind
and I miss you so, I miss telling u everything... I miss showing u things... I miss our eyes. This has to be a dream. I cant accept ur absence and take goodbye for what it means. u left me lost and broken, I still can’t find my way. Months have passed real slowly, but it’s harder every day. I will never forget u, Though we are far apart, I miss u so much and love u with all my heart....

DA

My Promise To You

I cannot promise u forever... We will need time to learn to love each other and to discover our feelings and wishes alone and together...

I cannot promise u that I will always smile, There will be times of sadness when I will miss u more than other times and when I will need ur reassurance...

I cannot promise u to always be the same but with u, I know that I can always be myself and share my feelings and thoughts with u...


I promise u my honesty... It was honesty between us from the very beginning, honesty that brought us more closer.

I promise u my patience with the obstacles we face at the moment it will not always be easy but worth it, if we don’t give up on love...

I promise u my understanding in the ups and downs that life may hold for us we will need to help each others when we feel down...

I promise you my true feelings to share my happiness and sadness with u and to always be there for u when u want to laugh or need to cry...

Most of all, I promise you my love. Here and now, unconditionally, tender and passionate, with no boundaries or limits...

DA

watching u from a distance....

watching u from a distance, afraid to get too close to u. Hoping u'd realize who loved u most but unless u open ur eyes to the one whose always there, u will never realize I'm the one who cared... there's a bit of u in every breath I take in every lesson learned from my dumb mistakes, I always pray for u for each ur precious day...

My Heart

i dont know whats happening, i cant stop thinking of u...Why do i feel this way
getting sadder day by day, i know my time is up but i still cant let go. the memories still make me smile and every thought i have is about the times we spent together... i just dont know how this happened so quick, how everything turned out so bad...u made me believe that u loved me but it turned out to be someone else...

Everything u said to me made me feel so special inside. I fell in love with u but cudn't explain why... we've been through so much together and i hope we last forever, ure exactly what i've waited for and i cudn't ask for more... i cud never find someone new... b'cos no one compares to u...

u promised me forever, i guess forever doesnt last that long... its just so hard to hold on when everythings goin wrong... never thought i'd miss u so much the sound of your voice, the feel of ur touch... im missing all this. I knew you wouldnt return the feelings...

Why did i stay, holding onto u? Then i remembered, I was holding onto the memories. The past, everything we had thats all i had left and now, I realize... that even though it was temporary, Our memories are forever. So im slowly climbing back up b'cos i know, u wont be there to catch me when i fall again. I think it was then I realized, I no longer had ur heart anymore...

At night im always crying cant seem to figure it out why u left me here alone on that very cold night, i know that what i did was wrong and how i treated u and the was mine acted but all those things dont matter b'cos i am still in love with u and i just dont know how to walk away....

I sit here begging for ur forgiveness but u just turn away. I know someday u'll forgive me and im sorry im this way... never meant to hurt u, im so sorry but i love u. i just wanna be happy again, i dont wanna cry so much like i have been. Praying this time the pain will end and a new life for me will finally begin...

if u only knew how much i loved u and seen how much i've cried then its ok for me to tell u... my sorry...



best
DA

The person is u.....

Have i ever just met a person who made my head turn?
Have i ever met a person who made my heart burn?
Have i ever met a person That let me be my self?
Have i ever met a person That made me feel love true?
Have i ever met a person who touched u so deep?
Have u ever met a person without whom i cud not sleep?

Have i ever met a person that brightened my life
Have u ever met a person that made me want to be a very true friend?
Have u ever met a person that made me want to be a great big brother?
Have u ever met a person that made me want to be a true soulmate?
Have u ever met a person that made me want to be a trully partner?
Have u ever met a person that made me want to be an amaizin lover?

Have you ever met a person whose eyes promise u'll never feel blue?

I know i have, b'cos that person is u, My Bigboy...


BabyBoy

if one day u want.....

If one day you feel like crying... Call me. I don't promise that I will make u laugh,
But I can cry with u....

If one day u want to run away, Don't be afraid to call me... I don't promise to ask u to stop... But I can run with u...

If one day u don't want to listen to anyone... Call me. I promise to be there for u.
And I promise to be very quiet...

But if one day yu call... And there is no answer... Come fast to see me...
Perhaps u need a hug...

u're the one for me... u are the key to unlocking My most sacred fantasies. u're the one for me... u are the one that I want to share. My life, my love with for all eternity. I will love u always and forever... u're the one for me.


DA

As ur babyboy...I Will be here for u BigBoy....

Factually, one of the best moments remaining in my heart of hearts, Inevitably none other than u my bigboy... I can't ease ur aching heart, Nor take ur pain away but let me stay and take ur hand and walk with u today...

I'll listen when u need to talk to, I'll wipe away ur tears falling down, I'll share ur worries when they come, I'll help u face ur fears... u can depend on me
Over and over... Know that I intend to be the one who always makes u laugh until u cry and u can call on me until the day u die....

I am ur babyboy... I'm here and I will stand by u, On each hill u have to climb... So take my hand, let's face the world and live just one day at a time... u are so much fun to be with and u are such a good person, u crack me up with laughter and touch my heart with ur kindness. u have a wonderful ability to know when to offer advice and when to sit in quiet support Time after time...

u're not alone bigboy, for I'm still here... I'll go that extra mile and when ur grief is easier, I'll help u learn to smile...! Anytime u need me... I will be here. u'll never be alone again, So don't u fear. Even if u're miles away... I'm by ur side. So don't u ever be lonely... Love will make it alright...

And time after time... i realized how fortunate I am that my life includes u... If one day u feel like crying... Call me....cos im ur babyboy...

As ur BabyBoy, i will be here for u my BigBoy....
DA

Ever wonder why God gives us two?....

Ever wonder why God gives us two?

A right hand to show the left what to do...

One ear to listen and one to hear the problems of others...their laughter and fears...

One eye to watch and one to behold, the beautiful treasures that life has to hold...

One foot to travel and one to stand tall, Two feet to land on if we should fall...

One person to stand by a person's side, One person to cherish being my special person...

The love between u and i come shining through and...

That is the reason... God has made two.

May God Bless u...
DA

Forgive me...

I never meant to hurt u... the way I know I have, ur love means more to me than anything and I’ll do whatever it takes to prove that to u.... Since the day I met u and ur love touched my heart... I knew that my life wud never be the same... Please forgive me for the pain I’ve caused. I’ll make it up to u every chance I get...

Sorry, I am so sorry my love. I did not mean to hurt u, When u cry then I cry more than u... b'cos I love u all my heart and soul.. Forgive me! I am so sorry my love... i told u that I would never hurt you again but again I made ur tears flow once more Now, I promise u that I will not hurt u again...

i hope u know that ur the last person who will ever touch my heart, i’m locking it up now in a safe forever there it’ll stay, perhaps it’ll help my heart heal is love at first sight real, is it as real as the pain u’ve given me...
im truely sorry... i’ll have to wait... can u forgive, the unforgivable... i dont think so, i dont think i’ll be able, i’ll have to stay away from u to become stable, i’m drowning in my thoughts of sorrow... there’s no one here to save me, so i guess i’ll just have to keep swimming this life until tomorrow... maybe my love will come back...

u have my heart and my love forever....


DA

I am sorry...

I am sorry it had to end like this... I am sorry that I can’t be what u want me to be, how u want me to be... I am sorry that loving me caused u so much hurt. I am sorry that I have done nothing but exacerbate ur insecurities... I am sorry that I walked into ur life, gave u hope and not fulfilling ur dreams... I am sorry... I am sorry....

I am not sorry I met you... I am not sorry I fell in love with u... I am not sorry for letting u into my life where no one was allowed for a year... I am not sorry for loving u with all my being while I cud... I am not sorry for having felt wonderfully loved and cherished at the expense of ur insecurities.

ur life, my life will go on. With a big hole that would take a long time to fill. With hurt that will take a long time to heal. With hope that one day the pain would ease and eventually go away...

My love for u will never go away….. and that is a promise...

DA

My Shoulder is waterproof...

by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Saturday, September 11, 2010 at 3:06am

u know what I go through, u know what I feel, u know what is true and u know what is real...

I wanna feel despair, I wanna feel desire and I wanna know that u're there no matter what transpires. I want ur heart to own, ur mind to be whole, ur shoulder to cry on

These shoulders are waterproof, Please lay ur head down... Cry if u need to and and ur body to hold...

I will be strong for both of us. ur tears touch my heart and soul, Let me have ur pain...

I wanna know how much u love me again and again... hear how much u care from beginning to end, know that u want me now and forever and know that u'll always choose me over whom or whatever...

My shoulders are strong, My flesh is pain resistant... Letting me help u, Doesn't make u weak. u are stronger than... The two of us together!

DA

I am still the most happiest man on earth...

by Whos's Daydo Andre II on Saturday, September 11, 2010 at 10:41pm

I used to think that I cud never be happy then u came into my life... it was a long time coming and hard work but I will never regret any of it for the happiness u have brought into my life is worth more than anything else in my world... Almost everything u say and do Makes me so happy and u know its true, That u are the one for me and I'm so in love with u...



I've loved u, u know thats true... Then u went and broke my heart in two.... im sorry im not perfect...i think, I am full of imperfections.... scars, regrets, wishes, love, dreams, hopes, desires, doubts, depression... but im still happy with my self... I have the power to make my life happy or sad, Right now I am so happy... i am more Stronger then any before. Im happy now, i feel alive... I wake with a shine in my eye. No more tears fall from them b'cos of the evil within ur heart..



Now, For me Happiness is the most important thing for me to achieve in my life, Happiness can not be gained. It is earned by my heart, Happiness can be found, When i am close to Allah... Happiness can be found, When i show my kindness to others. Happiness can be found, When i am nice to those i hate... Happiness can be found, When i help others....



i am Happy, b'cos I am completely changed, i am Happy b'cos I have pledged to keep my dignity... i am Happy b'cos, I have chosen my way in life... I am happy now, can't u see... Im better of away from thee... I stupidly wish u cud be happy, that u wud see what u did so wrong to me. I did love u, but now its gone just emptyness and anger is all thats upon. I dont want to hate u, i dont want to feel a thing. I wish u no harm, as i have no qualms. Things in the past sud stay that way... i have no desire to relive, maybe one day...



For me Happiness are the love and kindness and learn to enjoy what ever comes along. Happiness is not far away from me, It is close to my heart... Money can't buy happiness, Even if i can't be happy, i must always be cheerful... Happiness is The best way to cheer my self up Is to cheer someone else up... then i am the most happiest man...



DA

life is still goes on...

for BabyBoy...

Life is to short tobe unhappy, laugh when i can, apologize when I sud, always forgive but never forget, learn from my mistakes but never regrets & let go what i can change. Love deeply & Love what i got, give everything & i have to take a good with the bad, smile when I'm sad, Always remember what i had. people change & things go wrong but I always remember life still goes on !...

(BabyBoy's Rule)

Thank u God for giving me such a loving person like u, my "Very Nervous"....
by Whos's Daydo Andre II

on Friday, September 3, 2010
at 11:49pm

I am "Very Nervous" when i write this note, i dont know why.. I was deceived and broken my heart slayed and trust shaken with trembling feet and eyes closed.. I was moving without any hope.. When somebody was gifting me tears, u just surprised me there... u brought back my smile and pleasure...

Since the first time I met u, I cudn't seem to forget u... And lately I seem to find, That u're always on my mind. I feel so happy when im around u and I thank God that I found u. At first I thought of u as a really good friend, But I realized that my feelings there didn't end... When I see u smile, It makes my life worth while and since the very start, u have been in my heart... u probably don’t know… How Grateful I am, to know u... I’m grateful for the gift u bought but do Remember that the greatest gift is u... I can't stop thinking about u no matter how hard I try...

Miles and miles and miles apart. Although so far, u've touched my heart, ur beautiful eyes, ur kindness, ur adoring smile, Seem to shorten every mile. I wake every morning and rest at night, my thoughts and dreams filled with ur sight... I can't see u, I can't smell u, I can't touch u and I can feel u but, somehow, I know u're there... The miles that lay between us seem to be so few one click upon a button and there I am with u...

u are such a wonderful person, I’m sure The Lord has put u here to show others how to Love... u are Kind, Sweet and Generous for this u are Truly blessed u Let Nothing stand in ur way In everything u do ur Best.. I can’t believe that u're helping me until today I never thought that I'd see How much of a caring person that u are... other people never notice how caring u can be but that’s alright b'cos i've never seen a bigger heart...



I just want u to know that I’ll always be here for u no matter what... Thank u for being there, for being u, for ur heart So good and kind a true friend I cud ever find and letting me be who I want to be.... u are an important person in my life, U are is a special gift, A special gift that God gave to me. I’d be lost and lonely without u, Thank u God for giving me such a loving person like u, b'cos u are my "Very Nervous"..

And this is the only way that I can tell u, I don’t want to tell u out loud... B'cos most of all I don’t want u to think that Im stupid or dumb. I don’t know why but u're the only person that I can really talk to without getting nervous, shy, uncomfort and mad. U're the best thing that i have today, tomorrow... the day after tommorow in my life, I just wanted to tell u how much that u mean to me and I just want u to see how much I need u so please don’t ever hate me....

Right now this distance between us is out of our control, but I'm still hoping one day soon, I'll get what I'm wishing for..i'll wait for u, till the day turns into night..thank u for all the joy and laughter that brought into my life... thank u for al of the comfort that u’ve given thank u for giving me the time of the day and opening my eyes so that I may see, Everyday I’ll Be on my knees and This is what I’ll Say I’ll Ask The Lord to Bless u and walk beside u day by day... Still I want to say u something Thanks for being there for me!!!



DA

i just wanna say to my heart...

I lost one of my dreams... No, it's just broken and can't recovery anymore... I thought I'm gonna be with u, I just lost the way we're built it before, I thought I'm gonna own u forever for the rest of my life, my love...

Then I realized, I can't push my ego to own u for my self.. Choice that actually I won't to take. It's just breaking my heart but I smile for u and happy for ur happiness...

Just tryin to be strong enough... b'cos I owned u already, u always in my heart
I'll always gonna be with u forever, u're my soul, my spirit. The reason to keep up strong to stand and never give up... Loving u... Is the best thing in my life as i never felt before...

I won't crumbble... I just have to through all the pain and I'm not alone. u're so close to my heart. No one cud replace ur special place... In my deepest heart and I'm gonna bring my love forever for my wholelife...

I just wanna say to my heart That "I Love u so much"...
DA