[ Just writing that puts a smile on my face ]: 2013

Kamis, 31 Januari 2013

i know....

I know that so far I have not been doing to well. Losing u has been far, far, far harder than anything I cud have ever imagined. Unexpected devistation is the only way to explain it. I cry a lot, I wait a lot and I miss u immensely. How cud I not? In such a short time, u became my everything... I loved you with all of my heart and soul... Despite all of the immense pain, I still firmly believe that it is better to have love and lost, than never to have loved at all... It is still hard to imagine life without u, and I still wonder how I can possibly survive without u... I know that I will, but I also know that it will be the most demanding challenge of my life... I will succeed, b'cos this is what I want, and it is what u wish for me. I am determined not to disappoint u....

Hug

Dre

Consumed by many greatest emotions...

Losing u has left an enourmous hole. Every day I try to fill it my broken soul... Before I met u, I was happy. I did not believe in "love at first sight" or any of those "stupid" love songs that talked about love. Then I met u! Suddenly I was deleriously so very happy. I was consumed by many

greatest emotions...then i realise that my emotions will totally overwhelm my logical thoughts... DA

I wud not get the chance to see you anymore....

I trusted u implicitly, and u always told me that u "trusted me, and more!"... u were the first person that I showed the 'real' me to, and u appreciated me for me. In the short time we were together, u found out more about me than I had ever let anyone else know. We shared and so much, yet there was still so much to learn... I knew so much about u, and then again, so little. I always assumed that we had so much time... So much I knew, yet so much I wanted to learn. Our love was a secret, and I was happy enough to keep that secret while we tried to sort out the incredible "mess" that we had got ourselves into. I was also happy to wait until circumstances were better... A couple of years in a lifetime meant nothing. I never knew that 'time' was the one thing we did not have... but, I thought that

when u left...

When u left, I broke ur trust and told people about us. I'm sorry, I had to.... I absolutely know how much ur privacy meant to u, but I had to... It was the only way for me to survive. In love, keeping our secret was easy. In death, the pain of loss is so intense that I cud not go through this alone. I trust that u understand... If u were here, I wud talk to u... u always gave me the best advice and support my soul. I don't know how u did it, but u always knew what was best for me... DA

My Affection Notes

Everyone has felt it at one time of their life, the loss of a love whether it be a family member friend or a relationship that parted ways leaving a broken heart behind to pick up the pieces and start over again. By writing, reading or sharing notes bout love can be a great way to start the healing process. Sometimes, after losing someone we care so much about, writing poems might be the only thing we can deem to muster.

Writing can be a great way for a person like me to have a voice to express my grief, anger, or sorrow over the lost love. Putting it into words regardless if any one reads it or not allows a person to release some of those emotions and begin to heal. i do not have to worry bout anyone knowing my secret desire to rekindle a lost love even if it was a relationship that had no future to begin with or if it was full of turmoil. In my notes bout lost love, adore of love, respect of love & proud being to love and to beloved.

my words are mine own to do with as i choose. However, if i've a hard time putting my thoughts & feelings down into words i can always seek ideas in how to express my self in it.Sharing poems about lost love can be healing as well as can possibly rekindle that lost love. With sharing poems to the love that was lost gives you the opportunity to express yourself and what that love meant to you. Often times in a relationship when love goes bad it is due to lack of communication.

Reading poems focused on lost love can be healing as well. It gives a person connection to others that are or have experienced the same emotions and pain. After reading poems having to do with lost love a person does not feel as alone as often is an emotion commonly felt after losing someone we love.

Although circumstances may not have been the same, the emotions that come with a lost love are. They are very similar to those experienced when you lose a loved one through death. In these poems, you can feel their anger, sadness, alone, frustrated and so many more emotions that are mixed it sometimes makes one wonder how and if they ever got passed the loss.

After reading other people’s poems regarding lost love i will begin to see that others too have really felt the exact same way, and in some even see their closure and how the moved forward. It will help me move forward and work through the pain. Not all notes in this mold end in emptiness, some can end incredible remarkable. That is what makes them so amazing.

Sharing my notes cud re-open that communication line and give me a second chance at keeping it open. However, even if the notes do not rekindle those lost loving feelings it can give me some closure. i will feel better knowing that i tried. Notes are remarkable in how they can touch on so many emotions and be so reflective of how one might feel.